Once upon a time a memory..

I'm home.

2011-04-05T19:27:00.002+01:00

There are so many things I wanted to blog about but I just dunno where to start?

It's been more than a year now since I last shared my thoughts and feelings to public on the internet (not applicable to #twitter cos' I'm just strangely attached to it.. Everytime after I'm gone I always find my way back to it..)

Oh I may sound a bit dramatic but that's just me. Oh ya and maybe because I only use my BB to tweet so that explains why I just can't seem to leave it.

Anyways....

Back to my blog.. Do u guys find it boring? (I wonder if I still got readership lol..)

I start to hate this theme already.. So sick of it but I'm too lazy to do anything about it now cos' it's 2:10am now and I gotta wake up at 7:30am later?

Sigh... Working life has taken its toll on me..

I used to be so free and full of energy during nights like this.. But tonight I just missed my blog so much and decided to come back to see if anyone missed me.. Though I'm dead tired.. It's just a strange feeling y'know...

Hard to describe.

Can't believe it's 2011 already. And I'm turning 25 this year. Gosh that's a fact I wish I could delete from my life lol.. Cos' I still wanna act cute and dress young and wear hot pants and enjoy the beauty of being young and be stubborn and be childish (sometimes) and be forever young...

I dunno if it's because I'm really getting older or because I've really started to believe that nothing is ever perfect, but I'm suddenly scared of the effects and impacts aging has for us..

Like forgetting things.. Like visually impaired or 'lao hua'... Like not being able to run or dance again...

The thoughts of it make me shiver.

And what scares me the most is none of us can ever escape it.

We all will turn old one day.

I know I think too much. Maybe I'm too young to even be thinking about things like this. Maybe I should be concern with the current situation and start doing something like donating to Japan quake victim and register myself as a voter (yes I know I should have done that already but I've been busy) and helping the needy?

I just hope to be better. That way I won't have regrets even if one day I finally turn old..

Even if I don't remember anything.. I know I won't be forgotten.

Here's an old picture of me standing on top of the world (I just miss my old self too much and of course, #Barcelona.. Where this picture was taken:

And one more of me n purple junior. ;)

Well.. I think that's it. I've brought my long-dead blog back to life again, I think. :)

And perhaps I should continue doing so. I dunno..

Maybe u guys will just have to sit and watch?

Thanks for reading (for those who still remember who I am)

*OK the last part sounds a lil' dramatic again lol but u know..

I'm just being me. ;)

So won't u welcome me home with roses and wine?

XOXO

my 2009.conclusion.

2009-12-31T16:34:00.005Z

Hello people, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! =D

Well, this will be my last post of 2009. Finally it's coming to an end.

A lot have happened this year.

But come to think of it, I actually do have some remarkable achievements (but I'm not gonna mention again here bluek). Even though I always complain that 2009 is a bad year for me. lol.

I was stupid for a while.

But I know I'll be okay. I'm okay. :)

2009 feels like a dream to me.

But now the dream is over, it's time to wake myself up and I can see there's a better life out there for me. :)

Cos' I believe that fairy tales do come true. One day soon, my prince will show up right in front of my doorstep (this is just one of my many many dreams lol) and tell me I deserve to be happy and he is my happiness. :)

Yes, call me hopeless romantic or whatever u want.

I just don't wanna give up believing.

Cos' I believe 2010 will be the year I'll shine. :)

Despite the fact that me turning 24 this year. Yes this kinda freaks me out to be honest but I have a young heart so fuck it, yes I'm 24 and I am still single, so what? I have a long journey ahead and I am going to live my life to the fullest. Nothing can stop me.

Work hard & play even harder. That's my motto. ;)

So, let's together make our dreams come true in year 2010. The world is ours to rule! :)

Bye bye 2009!

Dear Santa,

2009-12-11T11:27:00.004Z

I know I'm not really a believer.

But dear Santa,

I hope my wishes will be granted this year.

Thank u.

I promise I'll be good

and I will not let anything break me again.

Because I'm a super girl.

I got lost on the way.

But super girls don't cry.

Super girls just fly.

We all have our moments of insanity.

Thank God I have my family and friends to keep me sane.

No one has the right to bring drama back to my life.

No one has the right to take away the peace of mind I'm entitled to have.

No one has the right to ruin my life.

Cos' only I can ruin it.

Cos' this is my life and I want to live it the way I choose.

Cos' my wish for Christmas this year is a simpler and quieter life.

Even though the memory will never leave me.

That's why my celebration this year is gonna be very different from my previous christmas celebrations.

I used to party real hard every year around this time

but this year I just want a quiet one.

A not-so-dramatic Christmas.

Christmas has always been my favourite day of the year.

And I know it will always be.

Cos' I still have faith.

I still believe that everything's gonna be fine.

I believe that one day soon I'll be what I always wanted to be.

And I believe the day will come soon.

Dear Santa,

I hope u hear me.

Thank u Santa. ♥

P/S: oh ya Santa I need a new passport too.

Thank you.

26.11.2009

2009-11-25T16:32:00.002Z

Hello people ..

I know I've abandoned this site way too long already, hehe. But now I'm back with not one, but two good news. :)

Firstly, this coming Monday is my short call day.

And to reward myself for being a nerd (for almost a month now), I bought myself a new pair of court shoes (from Charles & Keith they are having sales now so go grab yours girlfriends!). And it's satin! ♥ And it doesn't look 'lao beh' lor. ;p

Well, it's for this coming Monday too, of course. It's my special day. Besides, I think I need a pair of comfy shoes rather than killer heels cos' I have been tortured by them and the result I get from them is : sore feet everyday!

And now, I'm gonna say bubbye to them and wave hello to my new love lol.

The second good news is Purple eventually found the SNK installation cd and now we can fight again! LOL. I admit I'm kind of violent when it comes to fighting (games) but seriously I think playing video game is the best way to release stress. And it feels even better when u win! =D

Anyways, life's treating me nice though work is a bit too much sometimes. But fighters don't whine, they fight to strive for excellence.

Well, after tomorrow I'll have 3 days holiday and I'm going back to hometown tomorrow! Happy. Miss home pun, haven't really spent time with them since I started work. And my best friend is back in town and I miss all my friends so much..

Hmm.. Gonna fully 'utilise' this holiday and re-charge myself.

Will write again soon. Have lotsa pictures to post up.

Till then, loves.

P/S : Happy birthday miss traveller. ♥

untitled

2009-11-10T10:21:00.020Z

Well so I had my hair cut again last Saturday. Couldn't stand my out-of-shape hair + the last time I ever went to a hair salon was in August. I'm busy what.. ;-p

Tell me I look chio not nerdy!

It's funny how people in my office comment on my hair everyday. It seems like I've gone a little too far this time lol cos' they keep telling me I look different. It's like everyone of them is telling me the same thing i.e. different. 'Very' different according to one of the staff. Well I just wanted to cut it short and I told the hairdresser to make me look smart and clean. It was all his idea to cut my fringe! Also please bear in mind that I wear my nerdy glasses to work everyday and the result of my hair + nerdy specs = nerdy nerd. O.O'

Me & my half-eyed/half face magician. ;)

hehe trying out his phone camera's effects i.e. sepia & greyscale used here.

And I found this love note/letter 'kiap' in my laptop last week. :)

Oh man this man is funny. He wrote down all his predictions in the note (like how he predicted how my work would be like and how the people around me would think of me) and how he 'kesian' me because I have to wake up early morning everyday.

I ♥ this man.
He must have written it when I fell asleep. I didn't even know when he slot it in my laptop.
Licik.

P/S : I found these pictures in his phone and realized I haven't blogged about it. Anyway it wasn't interesting enough to be an independent post.

All pictures taken in conjunction with my post-CLP-celebration.

Redbox during Halloween.

And the reason why we went to redbox and not other places was because

we had too many unused redbox vouchers! Lol.

Dinner at A&W. It's my favourite fast food restaurant!

And I got a free Shin Chan by donating only 3 bucks! =D

And allow me to introduce this new addition to our zoo collection to you.

Mighty big headz lion~
(haven't thought of a name yet)

P/P/S : The lion is obtainable at all Guardian stores. But the first step u must do is to collect 40 big headz stamp before u can redeem it. U'll get ONE stamp for every RM 15 spent at Guardian.
Hehe and the next animal we are gonna get is elephant! I'm going to redeem it tomorrow and make our zoo merrier. :)))

oh it's november already.

2009-10-27T10:14:00.022Z

Hello readers.. Did anyone miss me? :-)

I was away from home for the past one week. Nevertheless it has been a very productive week.
I finally filed my paper yesterday (yes I went down to KL again yesterday morning and came back on the same day and I even went to work today) and the next thing I really want to do is to sit down and rest.
But I have my very first legal aid duty this Friday! *curses*

Well, I've finally started working. This is the second week already, today's the second Wednesday since I started work. Nothing much to complain cos I really enjoy my work here, everyone's nice and friendly. In a nutshell, things seem to be going right. Sometimes I get too tired and wish I could have a break but then again I know I have to be responsible and serious now.
There are things that we have to sacrifice.

Anyways, I know I've abandoned my blog for too long already and if I started to write now it'd be so damn lenghty so here are some pictures/summary of my October to tell u guys what I've been up to lately.
*picturesspeakathousandwords*

So, last last Saturday, I went to Akon's beach concert at Sunway Lagoon. It was awesome.
Akon ROCKS~!!

And these are the people that made that night so wonderful- Suki, Jaycey, and Mr. Purple.
Arigatou. :)
(thanks to jaycey we got free tickets for the concert hehe)

Pre and Post-Akon's arrival. Look at the crowd!

Then we started to get boring watching all the people jumping and shouting, we found us a great place to sit down and drink. :)

Went to watch 'Inglourious Basterds' after the concert.
The movie was good and the next day we drove back to Penang.

And finally I watched The Time Traveler's Wife.
Went to Sunway Mall with Mr. Purple last week and decided to watch there cos' the cinema's new and we had Thai food there! =D
Been anticipating for the movie since September.
And Eric Bana + Rachel McAdams look so perfectly together!

Some random pictures.
Dinner at NWP.

And yes, this is exactly the same dress that I wore on Akon's concert. Hehe, first I love this dress and secondly I don't have money and time to go shopping now.
How depressing.. :(

I wanna go shopping!! I wanna add colours to my boring wardrobe!!

just a little

2009-10-16T19:40:00.005+01:00

I should have known..

Today's not a happy friday like what I tweeted a few hours ago. Today's a black friday. Everything I thought I was going to have disappeared.

There's no more 'we'.

I'm all on my own, now.

I should have known.

But I'm calm and cool.

I know we both needed to do this.

Call me a fool if u want to but I believe our decision is necessary.

Because right now what's right and what's wrong or who's wrong and who's right

doesn't matter anymore.

Everyone goes through the same process.

They fall. And they are torn and broken.

But time will heal.

And one day, they will rise again.

It just hurts a little.

Just a little..

Quote of the day.

2009-10-14T16:03:00.002+01:00

If there is one thing we should fear, it would be our own self.

Because when u close your eyes, every thing we thought we saw we thought we knew stop existing.

Things do not exist when our eyes are closed.

By - the wise man.

2009-10-12T04:42:00.007+01:00

Hey hey everyone.. :)

Yes, it's Monday again and I'm doing what I usually do at this hour, drinking protein + checking my emails and fb. This is like my habit already since July. I'm too free. Well, speaking of July, CLP result's finally out last Monday.

And I passed.

Thank God.

Many people asked me how I passed because they normally don't see me studying, well all I can say is it's all hard work plus a little luck. The girl from the Legal Profession Board actually told me that I nearly failed two papers i.e. Evidence and Professional Practice.

If u're one of the CLP students, u will understand why I say I'm lucky.

But anyways, I was both shocked and happy when I found out that I did quite well for my General Paper and Criminal Law. :)

It's not easy studying law ok.. But I'm so grateful that I can finally call myself a law grad now and start chambering. :)

I have a feeling that 2010 is gonna be a great year. =D

p/s : I have no pictures in this post because I receive a lot of comments like 'u're getting thinner lehh cha borr', 'weii what happened to u why become so thin?', 'weii did u do drugs why are u so thin now?'.... =.='

And these comments/questions irritate me. Yes I am thin now and I don't give a shit. So what? I won't be taking any pictures until I gain another 3kg. Hmmmphh..!!

Love Drunk

2009-10-08T15:25:00.000+01:00

(hey! hey! hey! hey!)
Top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit and run
And I still taste it on my tongue
(taste it on my tongue)
The sky was burning up like fireworks
you made me want you oh so bad it hurt,
but girl, in case you haven't heard

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a barfight
So don't call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
(oh yeah!)
Cause just one sip
(oh yeah!)
Would make me sick
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
But now it's over

(hey! hey! hey! hey! hey! hey! hey! hey!)
Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We're spinning on a roller coaster ride
With the world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
Now im so broken that i can't get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a barfight
So don't call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
(oh yeah!)
Cause just one sip
(oh yeah!)
Would make me sick
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
But now it's over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab
Cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk
(but now I'm hungover)
Love you forever
But now I'm sober

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it's just a barfight
So don't call me crying
Say hello to goodbye
(oh yeah!)
Cause just one sip
(oh yeah!)
Would make me sick
I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
But now it's over
(na na na na na na na na na
na na na na na na na na na
na na na na na na na na na
na na na na na na na na na)

Now it's over
Still taste it on my tongue
Now it's over

movie marathon at home

2009-10-01T07:03:00.011+01:00

Arrggh it's October already and CLP result is still not out. :(

This feeling sucks.

I've been trying to avoid thinking of it cos' there is no date fixed for the release of our results. So in order to do this, I watch DVDs.

Yes that's what I've been doing for the past few days. Movie marathon and the only difference is we watch all these movies at home. :)

Hehe. =D

We watched 'Watchmen'.
I think this is a stupid movie but Purple seems to like it a lot. Maybe it's because of the power the super hero a.k.a. Dr. Manhattan possesses in the show.

He can almost become God already lor.

That's why I don't like it because I think it's not logical.

Nevertheless I think the man in the mask a.k.a. Rorschach is cool.

'Knowing'
Not bad. But as usual the ending is predictable.

'Haunting in Connecticut'
Nothing much to say. Supposed to be scary but I find the story very touching.
A mother's love to her son.
It's based on a true story happened in Connecticut.

'I know what u did last summer'
Yes I know it's uber long already but yes I still find it scary.

'Sex and the city movie'
Well this show has always been my favourite and the four of them are just awesome don't u think? And it has a happy ending. :)

'Jerry Maguire'
Tom Cruise's so cute back then! And this has gotta be one of the greatest love film.
It's a romantic comedy starring Tom Cruise and Renee Zellweger.

'The Illusionist'
This show is simply brilliant. I'm obsessed with Eisenheim's supernatural powers. He's one smart guy. And sexy Jessica Biel plays the role of the love of Eisenheim's life.
It's a must-watch lor.

And last night, we watched '12 Rounds'.

This is another must-watch. It's from the director of Die Hard 2.
Haha no wonder I find it a bit similar to Die Hard. But it's good though. Two thumbs up!

Hmmm hmmm.. What should we watch tonight? =D

awwww ♥

2009-09-29T09:13:00.002+01:00

Check these videos out. They make me laugh. :)
Baby laughs are so powerful. ♥
The first one's my favourite. 4 babies laughing at the same time! How cute! ♥

Now I feel like having a baby LOL. I'll be a good mommy I think..
Hope I won't kill my baby lol.. =X

愛多少早知道

2009-09-25T14:18:00.004+01:00

我的头发已全部剪掉
你指定的发型我现在不想要
我再也不会抱着你聊
聊那些以前以为有的未来
对你说的话
现在想起来多可笑
请你别太计较

早知道我会爱得受不了
就该随身带着一把剪刀
把所有我不爱的画面都去掉是否我会更好

早知道认识你像玩高空弹跳
拉扯你我爱的距离忽大忽小
也许认识我的时候你就知道
你对我的爱有多少

♥ BB ♥

2009-09-24T09:55:00.008+01:00

Seeing my boyfriend using new cell phone when I'm still using the same old phone makes me jealous and impatient. I've been wanting a new phone since forever, but I really dunno what phone to get as every phone seems to have same functions nowadays.

I agree that I-phones are cool but it's just not what I am looking for. I never like it.

And I'm sick of being a Nokia user. Well all my Nokias served me well but I think it's about time to change..

And the new BB curve 8520 looks so perfect. ♥ And it's black in colour! ♥ Shiny black!

Just what I wanted. And I'd love to have it as my new baby. :)

Well, good news is Celcom is going to offer pre-paid plans for the latest BB curve 8520. Isn't this exciting? I am waiting eagerly for its launch. =D

P/S : I don't mind switching to become a Celcom user as I'm sick of the service Maxis provides anyway. :)

The TT's Wife trailer

2009-09-23T21:05:00.004+01:00

It's 4am in the morning. My boyfriend is soundly asleep beside me while I am wide awake, listening to 'Supergirl' by Reamonn, smoking, writing.

I dunno what to write actually. But it seems like everyone's asleep at this time now, and the only connection I have is internet. Anyways, so I finally finished reading The Time Traveler's Wife and it makes me cry. :'(

I didn't expect Henry to die that way..

But he knew (and I knew) he was dying anyway the day his feet were amputated. *sobs*

But the writer's good at describing details, and that can really bring u into the story. In a nutshell, it's definitely a great book and worth reading.

And I love Clare. She never gives up waiting. Even after Henry's dead.

Oh I can't wait to watch the movie. Clare's played by pretty Rachel McAdams.

Oh I can't wait to see it. *anticipating*

Well, here's the trailer of the Time Traveler's Wife. :)

Enjoy.

And for me, I am going to try to get some sleep now so sweet dreams everyone. xoxo

holiday's over.

2009-09-22T15:20:00.028+01:00

Yes, holiday is officially over for me. Well, at least for now. I've been too free and lazy for awhile, and I guess it's about time for me to gear up a bit. I was told that CLP results would be released before Raya and for the past few days, I lived in hell. I was worried that my result would turn out disappointing. But lucky enough, I still haven't heard any news regarding the release of CLP results yet. But most of them say it'd be this week.

Anyways, I guess panic won't help.

Let's just wait and see, I believe everything's gonna be ok. :)

(it's important to be positive and to have faith in myself now, 'The Secret' says so. :) )

As promised, pictures time!

Well, last Sunday, I went to this phor thor dinner (7th month auction dinner thingy) with Purple Choong and his friends. I went there last year but this year it felt totally different! First the dinner was all sponsored by Jaz Beer and there were about 200 tables ! I thought Balik Pulau was a small town?

The lion dance before dinner.

And the V.I.Ps arrived in helicopter. We all thought Gillian Chung was in the heli. ;-p

That's her on the heli. Wow I didn't know Gillian drinks Jaz Beer too. ;)

Was supposed to wear black, that's their dress code every year.

The guys. Anyone noticed what is wrong here? ;)

And I have to tell u the auction was mad. The huat kuih u see here got auctioned off for RM2.5k.

And a gold-plated tiger (not solid gold) got auctioned off for nearly RM 5k.

Mafias are rich. LOL.

Btw, Purp bought a new phone last week and here are some shots we took with his phone camera. Not so bad right? :)

That's Penang Times Square.

Snowflake earrings.

Shopping Spree. =D

Bought a lot of things lately, I've got new eyeliner from Majolica Majorca (oh u have to try their eyeliner if u're not quiet a fan of pencil eyeliner, it's so smooth and the colour stays for a long time! Just like liquid eyeliner.), 2 tops and a dress from F21, 2 bras,6 pairs of earrings, and a new pair of studded flats. =D

Us at Subway. Purp wanted me to pose with my new manicure. I chose darker purple for my toe nails, so cheap it costs me RM 55 only for both manicure and pedicure. Happiness. ♥

And Friday night @ HardRock Cafe, Batu Ferringgi. :)

Me & MJ.

YK and Kevin. *look where Kev put his hand*

Keavie looks a bit tipsy here. But I love her dress! ;p

And this year Raya was quite peaceful. Not very bad traffic (well I haven't been out a lot so I don't actually know about the traffic cos' most of the time I am home watching DVDs.) We went to Sue's house at SP again, and this year, we get to play fire crackers! =D

U can't find this in Penang. So blissful so peaceful. I love kampong. :)

That beautiful lady in orange baju kurung is Sue.

♥ this picture.

Her name's Fara Asyika. Hmmm..

The guys and their muscle-logy. ;-p

I guess this pretty much sums up my one week diary. :)

Will write again soon. And for now, I am going to take a hot shower and read The TT's Wife again. Yes, I'm still reading the book because I feel sad for the story everytime I read it and I was really emo for the past one week so I stopped reading the book for one week as I figured reading it would cause more emotional wars.

Till then, loves. ♥

8am in the morning.

2009-09-20T00:53:00.013+01:00

It's 8 a.m. in the morning.

I dunno why but I'm missing my life in Newcastle. My days in Newcastle.

Perhaps it's because I am still wide awake in early morning like this. It feels just like the days I used to have when I was there. It feels like the summer in Newcastle, chilly but sunny.

That scarf used to be my favourite. I remember Ben once said that this scarf is for guys and how I argued with him that it's unisex cos' I bought it from Esprit.

I miss those days when I was in IPG.
When I was seeking for fun with friends rather than knowledge.

When everything was simpler.

Maybe I'm a little emotional lately. Blame the weather. It's always gloomy, too gloomy.

Or maybe it's because I miss all the yesteryears when I was young and restless.

Or maybe it's because I miss my friends.

All of them.

Well..

Good morning everyone and enjoy ur holidays. :)

I'm gonna wake my baby up and ask him to bring me for dim sum.

P/S : Pictures taken at HardRock Cafe, we went there on Friday, met Keavie there. It was fun, the music was cool, the staffs were friendly. Just a little update of what I'm doing lately. Yes, matchmaking and outings. :)

Me and the bad influence. ;-p

YK, me and Keavie.

The couples.

P/P/S : Will update again soon with more pictures. XOXO

P/P/P/S : I'm listening to Yesterday by Beatles now and I guess this explains why I am being so emotional. OK everyone, happy holidays and be safe on the road. :)

Happy Raya Day

2009-09-19T17:32:00.005+01:00

I was reading all the things I wrote since I started this blog awhile ago.

Things have changed so much.

I have gone from long hair to short hair, short hair to even shorter hair.

My boyfriends changed, I am no longer the owner of the British Classic mini cooper I once owned, I changed job, my life changed.

So much have changed. Yet so much remained the same.

I dunno if I should be thankful or should I hate these changes?

I am always trying my best to live my life the way I want.

Until I realize my way is not the way other people want.

People once told me, the only constant is change.

Change is the only constant.

Well I guess we are all changing, somehow, maybe we aren't even aware, but somehow we are changing.

Nothing much, I am just penning down my thoughts, just like how I always did last time.

Happy Raya Day everyone. :)

xoxo

09.09.09

2009-09-10T10:22:00.008+01:00

Well, as can be seen from my twitter updates (I added it yesterday, hehe now I have both my twitter and blog linked! ;-p), the double date last night went well.

Very well I would say. :)

We went to Toilet bowl (not the toilet bowl u use everyday at home) at Queensbay and had our dinner. They both seemed comfortable and started talking like me and Purple weren't there. ;p I guess they do have same topics and same interests (self-assumed) because they are both consultants and work in the same field.

This Toilet Bowl.

After dinner we decided that it was still early and we went to watch 'The Unbelievable'. Hmm.. Don't ask me if it's good, I am still wondering why did I spend my precious time on this shitty movie. It's a not typical ghost films like 'Feng Shui' or 'The Shutter' or 'The Red Shoe' or 'The Maid', but I think it's really based on real story.

Haha but someone did find it scary and throughout the whole movie, both of their heads were so close to each other. *goal completed* :)

After movie which was about 12 a.m., me and Purple thought that maybe both of them needed more time to get to know each other so we suggested to go for a drink at Seagate. We sat down while Purple went to order satay.

And 20 minutes later, the uncle came back to us with a huge plate of satay, which we later counted, with 40 sticks of satay. O_o'

But the poor uncle looked so innocent and he didn't understand Malay we guessed. We kept telling him only ' Lima Belas Batang!' 'Lima Belas' but he still couldn't understand. So eventually we bought all the satays from him but still couldn't finish it and brought the remaining home.

After we sent YK home, I just realized it was 09.09.09. And I've just done a good thing. :)

Both of them had a pretty good night I guess cos' I definitely enjoyed my 09.09.09. :)

But things totally changed lor today. :(

I woke up at about 3 p.m. today feeling extremely tired (I slept at 4 a.m. last night), so I continued to nua until it was 5 p.m. and I decided to go take my shower and meet Shu Fong up.

But when I was about to go out, I found out that my car key's missing again. =_='

I searched the whole room but still couldn't find it so I called Purple Choong and asked if he's taken it with him again.. Believe me it happened more than once already, he took my car key to work! And with no surprise, he told me yes my car key's with him and he's coming home already. =_='

So I went to Prangin Mall after I fetched Shu from work and bought him a keychain. A Liverpool keychain. :)

So he has no excuse now to tell me that the keychain I'm using for my car key now looks like the old one he used to have anymore!

Hmmmphh!!

The return of Shu Fong.

2009-09-09T09:56:00.021+01:00

Well ohh well.. Since I'm so free I guess I should post picturs of our gathering last Sunday.

Shu Fong's finally back in Malaysia. :)

Well she's helping her dad now while waiting for the next CLP intake. People now Master lorr, mai siao siao. ;-p

Angel joined us too. :) This lady has been MIA for the past 2 months. I dunno where she went but apparently she said she's been busy helping her dad too. Wow why is everyone such a filial daughter huh?

Anyways, I wanna thank Ning the photographer as he helped to take a lot of nice pictures. Here are some of the nice shots.... :)

* Before food was served*

* After food was served *

Compulsory group picture. :)

*noiamnottheshortest!

We girls went shopping after Chili's cos we were too full and needed some exercise which involoves wasting money. ;)

We bought a watch (which was meant for my birthday and Shu's birthday) and a bullet bracelet and a hairband. LOL. Pictures?

Lucky guy with 3 girls. ;)

Yes my baby was there too! We were at Swensens. :)

We went to Shu's house afterwards cos' she told us her mom was making something nice. ;p
And since we're done shopping we needed a place to sit down and chat.

And her mom's a very nice person, kept serving us with drinks and food. ;)

(Kiap peanut butter, yumms!)

And we all got so excited when Shu Fong brought out the puppies! ♥

See? Even Ning and my baby didn't wanna let the puppies go. ;p

* OK now I wanna watch an episode of SATC then get ready for the dinner tonight.

Will write about their story soon stay tuned.

XOXO

matchmaking ;)

2009-09-09T05:08:00.007+01:00

Am finally connected to the internet again, woo hoo!! :)

Well not to say I can't live without Internet, it's just that when u're bored at home and your Internet is down, u will feel depressed like me. I felt really bored yesterday after I found out that Streamyx would take one day or two to recover, so I decided to go and get my haircut. (because I really had nothing better to do, everyone's busy and Internet's down!)

But all of my friends still think my hair is short and I don't have to cut it. However I still went out despite their advice, I was so bored I needed to do something.

But by the time I went out it was already 5 p.m. something. So I turned to KFC (God knows why) and bought Popcorn chicken and Cheezy wedges, cos' Purp was coming back from work and I didn't feel like going to cut my hair anymore cos' I was alone.

I came home, wanted to sign in my msn and realized my Internet was still down, so I took out the DVDs we bought from Prangin Mall last weekend and saw 'Knowing'. Well I haven't finished watching it cos' I didn't have time to watch it. Purp reached home and we both fell asleep the moment we finished our Popcorn chicken and Cheezy wedges. ;-p

Yea, that's how my usual Tuesday goes. At night he will go to gym and I will have to find my own entertainment. :) Most of the times I opt to stay home cos' it's ghost month and I really don't have any particular place to go. But I'm so excited today. =D

We are going to match-make Purp's friend. Hehe. :))))))))

It was all my idea initially but all of us got so excited about it. The date is tonight. I hope both of them will turn out good. :)

Cos I truly think they are so compatible. Same field, same age, guy is handsome and girl is preeetty. Hehe can't wait can't wait for the dinner tonight. And speaking of dinner, I'm so hungry already..

Oh yaa and if it turns out good, we might even go for a movie together! :)

(well actually I have already booked the tickets (for The Unbelievable and Vengeance), how considerate eh? ;-p)

P/S : in care u're wondering who's the guy and the girl, here are their pictures. I guess they will look so perfect together. ;-p

P/P/S : ssshhhhhhh.. Don't tell them, they dunno yet. ;)

Till then, lovesss!! XOXO

ME..?

2009-09-06T22:01:00.006+01:00

I've been staring at these two pictures since I got back home half an hour ago.

Guess I'm too stoned to move and go take shower (which I'm supposed to do), and God knows why, I clicked on my blog again and I saw this picture I took 2 years ago at Barcelona, Spain.

It's really been 2 years eh? My hair was still long and shiny then. And I look so sweet and happy here. ;-p

And here's the second picture. Short-haired, thinner, prettier (I hope).

Nothing much actually, I'm just blabbing here, too stoned as I said. I've changed so much. From a dreamer to a believer. Oh life..

Gotta go take my shower now. Happy Monday everyone xoxo!

Quote of the day.

2009-09-06T04:49:00.003+01:00

Tell me and I will forget. Show me, and I may not remember.

Involve me, and I will understand.

Unfortunate day.

2009-09-05T17:34:00.004+01:00

Hello world.

I woke up at 2pm today, cancelled my lunch appointment with Keavie and Purple and I decided to chill at home. Work-out, DVDs, beers and etc.. Well I did sweat a lot though.. ;)

Well we just got home from Segafredo. Met up with his ex-colleagues from Dell last time. And guess what, we are gonna be models again. ;-p

He has a friend who is very into photography as well and his friend, Dao Chuan, actually saw our pictures online one time from another photographer's blog.

How small is the world eh?

And why are all people so into photo-shooting anyway?

I still don;t understand why but as long as his friend can take good and gorgeous pictures of us, I don't really mind. :)

It's been a while since my last photo-shoot. Hope my new hair gets her best attention and I'll look pretty and sexy in the next photo-shooting. :)

I prefer staying home with my soulmate and get myself drunk all the time.

Call me alcoholic or whatever if u want to. I don't need another judgement.

Today's my lazy day, but my dad had a rather black Saturday today. He met a road bully this morning at Alor Star when he went to fill the car up at Simpang Empat. The Malay guy was shocked but malays are always unreasonable and 'aur ban' at the same time, the guy got out from his car and smashed my dad's car window. Wtf right?? Like no need to follow the law.. But anyway my dad made a police report and got his car window fixed this afternoon. So everything's fine now. :)

I'm looking forward to the gathering tomorrow at Chili's. I've never been to Chili's before, and all of us are gonna be there, how fun! Hehe.

* Will write again soon. Bought earrings and a rocker ring from Prangin Mall earlier, am still happy and in case u're wondering what's on my mind, I'm thinking what to wear tomorrow. ;-p

** Have a happy weekend everyone! XOXO

My friday.

2009-09-04T06:32:00.013+01:00

Good evening world. :)

I had a happy day today. Thank God it's Friday. Finally I got to meet up with Shu, she's back from UK. It's nice seeing her again, we went to Nando's for a quick bite (although we did spend quite a long time there chatting and kap siao-ing lol). Went to Watsons afterwards to buy some facial masks and the best buy of the day must go to the eyeshadow we bought. Super cheap u won't believe it! =D

And the box looks very cute, though I doubt if I will ever ever use it.

And haha she bought me something from UK. Something naughty I dunno where she got the thing from, maybe Anns Summer? LOL. But anyways I love the sexy purple G-string she bought me. So very sweet of her cos' my boyfriend's called Purple. ;-)

met up with Keavie who was there with her friends then passed her the book she asked me to buy. She looks pretty like an ang pow here. ;p

By the way, I finally have my own car now. *laugh*

I love the colour the most, midnight blue, looks cute and stylish. And I decided to call her Blueberry (as suggested by Purple Choong). ;-)

But there are so many things I have to do. For example I need to get Blueberry tinted and buy some nice CDs and also to buy a bigger mirror and I really have to buy myself a handphone. I've been complaining so much about my 'lou beh' N73 and yet I'm too broke to afford a nicer, better one. :(

Some more most of my money are spent on Blueberry already.

It's a ViVa Elite. Here's how it looks like.

Well.. My life's doing OK at the moment and I love it just the way it is now. :)

* Tonight Keavie and I are going to meet Joelle up at UPR. Think it's gonna be fun as I haven't seen her since forever. The last time was when we were in UK I think.

** OK for now. Going to take a hot shower then read The TT's Wife again. Purple's coming back from work now. I'll write again soon with more pictures of what I'm up to lately. Bye! xoxo

2009-08-24T08:13:00.010+01:00

Today's my happy day lor. :)

I'm back at home again. It's been raining a lot lately.
And I'm so happy now. =D

Last night Purple and I went to watch 'UP'. We were initially choosing between 'UP and 'Laughing Gor', but Purple didn't seem to be interested in 'Laughing Gor', so we decided to watch 'UP'. And it turned out our choice was correct, the movie was indeed very good.

It's a story about an old man i.e. Mr. Fredericksen who ties balloons to his house and flies away. Hahaha sounds unbelievable and not logic I know, but his adventure nevertheless is so interesting and funny + very touching too. And the little fatty i.e. Russell is sooooo cute! Also the talking dog! I want that dog!! ;-p
In a nutshell, it's really worth the time and money. (I want a floating house too!)

By the way, I finally found The Time Traveler's Wife at Borders. =D
Bought two; one for me and one for Keavie.

And my car will be out this Sunday. :)
Actually I feel cheated cos the salesman promised me that I'd get my car by this week but their words cannot be trusted right? Now I have to wait until Sunday..
Well.. Lesson learned.

Nonetheless today's still my happy day cos' there are so many reasons for me to be happy. ♥

P/S : Will update again soon. This rain makes me feel so lazy now.. ;-p

P/P/S : Happy 23rd birthday Zin! May all your wishes come true!!
OK pictures time. These are some of the pictures we took last Tuesday at City Bayview restaurant and we headed to Segafredo UPR after dinner.

XOXO

online shopping ♥

2009-08-20T01:55:00.017+01:00

I totally agree with Keavie in her previous post that life after exam / too much freedom actually leads to boredom.

I have too much time at home now I spend most of my time surfing the nets.

And online shopping is my new hobby. Firstly, it's really cheap. Period.

Secondly, they have really good stuffs at really low prices (i don't see any difference from point one LOL), even though some of the items I bought are pre-loved or rather pre-owned, but I don't really mind that. And online shopping is so convenient and easy don't u think? U just have to confirm your order and pay then u will get your stuffs after a few days.

The only problem I don't like about online shopping is I have to wait 2 or 3 days before I can get my purchases. So I usually do CODs with the sellers; maybe because I'm impatient. I cannot wait until 2, 3 days later only wear my 'new' dress.

Anyways, today since I woke up so early today (hehe it's only 10 am now) I guess I'm gonna post some pictures of my recent online purchases. :)

1. Vintage belt from Rerevintage (the buttons are very vintage-y) - RM15

And guess what, this purple jumpsuit/romper/whatever u call it actually belongs to my mom! I found it in her closet and decided to make it mine. ;-p

Place : The Ship Restaurant

Date : March 2009

2. Orange dress from One Day - RM 20 (yes what a bargain right and the dress is like totally brand new)

Place : Pg chinese registration place; Darrel & Winnie's big day

Date : August 2009

3. Brown clicher from sashavintage - RM 28 (well I guess u can't really see it though but it's super nice and brand new and the colour basically matches every colour in my wardrobe.)

4. Oversized kimono shirt from One Day also (I love this shirt; worn it with MNG latex leggings during night out with Keavie) - RM 18

5. Brown drawstring bag (yes iam very obsessed with drawstrings lately!) from 8letters3words - RM 32

And yes of course I did pong chan my ji mui's blogshop Not-So-Vintage lar (ok iam promoting he blogshop again but hey she really has all the nicest things like really cheap bags and vintage dresses and belts)

Here are what I bought from her :

(tauke soh :-p)

6. Green (or blue?) dress - RM 27

I've worn this once as a shirt & I love the material of this dress!

7. Miss Selfridge carry-all tote bag - RM 30

This is a all-purpose bag and ngam people like me who always carries a lot of stuffs. And Miss Selfridge at RM 30? What a steal!

And I am going to pay for my purchases from LittleBlush Wardrobe last night later =D

Shopping makes a person happy. :)))

And I'm meeting up Lokido later, and it makes me happy too.

And know what, I get both the clutch as well as the caramel bag and the brown belt at RM 50 only! How can u not love online shopping? ♥♥

RM 5o includes postage fees and all of these are mine after 2 or 3 days (the seller's in Ipoh cannot do COD) =D

But this is really worth the wait. I have always wanted a bag like that which can be hand-held. That size. That colour. That material.

Happy Thursday everyone XOXO

I miss home.

2009-08-19T05:20:00.005+01:00

I'm going back to hometown tonight.

Miss home so much.

It's always like that.

U always miss someone when u're away from him/her. Anyways I just woke up and I'm feeling happy today cos' of so many things. First, I know I will get to see my babies soon. Miss both of them so much! Wanna bring them to go swimming again + their favourite ice kacang + cycling in the park!

I am so happy already thinking of the fun we're gonna have when they see me. =)

I really think my family sayang me too much sometimes. ♥

But it's a good thing as long as I don't abuse their sayang, so, no conflicts. I have so many plans when I go back to hometown this time . *ahem*

Meeting up Ewhoay, Lokido, and I wanna buy a new cell phone. Think it's really about time now. My current cell phone is old and trashy, I cannot even open my bluetooth application! But I'm not very tech-savvy type of person, so I guess I'm bringing my father along so I won't get conned. Clever daughter eh? *wink*

I wanna look for a good camera phone also, Wi-Fi-able, has all the features and applications that my old phone has now. Sony Ericson sounds not bad huh?

And a new camera if possible haha.

By the way, Zin's birthday dinner at Rasa Sayang Hotel next week sounds exciting and fun. Can't wait to hang out with the gang again. And guess what, Ben's back, and this time, with a mate lorr! LOL. Too bad Hooi Cheng is back in KL, no chance for a perfect reunion. :(

The last reunion dinner we had was 2 years ago.

But I'm sure Keavie will eat on behalf of her. She always does that. Especially when the desserts are served. Girls find it hard to resist desserts sometimes hehe.

Anyways, can't wait till next Tuesday.

XOXO ♥

smoking kills.

2009-08-18T09:03:00.011+01:00

I was checking e-mails in my inbox as usual and I read this e-mail that Shu sent to me a minute ago. She still is a lovely anti-smoking girl. :)

But most of the people around her smoke including her mother.

*betshedoesnotknowiamsmokingasitypethis* ;-p

*notthatiamveryproudofitbutitjustbecomesahabitnow.sigh.hardtokick.*

But I do find some of the pictures very creative and amazing.
Especially the first one where the beautiful young lady is smoking but the face of old ugly lady is reflected in the mirror who is actually her.reflection.

Creative right? There are a lot more other photos but I think these are the nicest. These are really creative ads. But one thing's for sure, their efforts in encouraging people to not start smoking or quit smoking should really not be overlooked. Smoking will eventually lead to a lot of health problems.

It's really becoming a common 'thing' now. Everyone I see on the streets smokes. And most of the people I know are smokers too. Has it really become so common now?

Perhaps it's really time to re-think and re-plan the life that u want now, smokers.

It's time to change. :)

2009-08-18T08:33:00.001+01:00

Hold on to love, that is what I do,

Now that I've found you.

And from above, everything's stinking,

They're not around you.

And in the night, I could be helpless.

I could be lonely, sleeping without you.

And in the day, everything's complex.

There's nothing simple, when I'm not around you

But, I miss you when your gone,

That is what I do, ba-baby.

And its going to carry on,

That is what I knew, hey baby.

http://www.free-lyrics.org

Hold on to my hands, I feel like sinking,

Sinking without you.

And to my mind, everythings stinking, stinking without you.

And in the night I could be helpless.

I could be lonely, sleeping without you.

And in the day, everything's complex.

There's nothing simple, when I'm not around you.

And I miss you when your gone,

That is what I do, ba-baby.

And its going to carry on,

That is what I knew, hey baby.

The Time Traveler's Wife

2009-08-17T06:22:00.009+01:00

I am definitely going to watch this!

It is about a story of a man who time travels.

And Rachel McAdams plays the time traveler's wife.

How more romantic can it be?

I still remember how I love Rachel McAdams in 'The Notebook'.

She's one of my favourite icons.

The story is based on a novel written by Audrey Niffenegger.
The movie will be coming up soon in August.

And I can't wait. It's already mid August now!

Well I guess complaining won't help. Let's just wait. :))))

Oh I just checked GSC website. The official release date for the movie in Malaysia is 1st October 2009.

October. 2 more months.

Hmmphh..

I guess I should go n buy the book first.

XOXO

2009-08-17T05:00:00.005+01:00

I really feel so sick.

Literally.

It's another Monday afternoon and I'm still feeling sick. This flu just won't leave me alone. :(

I've been sick since weekend. And despite the fact that I was seriously dizzy and sick, we decided to go and watch 'G.I. Joe' (we were thinking maybe going out for a movie would help haha what a funny thought cinema usually is packed with people during weekends).

And the result was crazy.
I subsequently thought I was Snake Eye in the movie. O.o'

The movie was good nonetheless. Better than 'Overheard' I would say. I love the part the most when Channing Tatum and his friend finally joined the Joes and when he kissed Sienna Miller. :)

OK time to go back for rest. I just woke up to go to toilet and wanted to write something cos' I could not fall back to sleep earlier. And I think everyone is talking about G.I. Joe now, Channing Tatum's really one hot guy! Love him since 'She's the man'.

But I eventually signed in my twitter and facebook and got hooked again haha.

And I am missing my man already..

XOXO

Bored at home

2009-08-14T15:54:00.011+01:00

I actually have nothing to blog but I don't wanna waste time just sitting here checking out facebook and my twitter, so I guess I should write. :)

My brother's one of the confirmed H1N1 patient but luckily enough, he's doing fine now (thank God) and 3 days ago when I called he was still in ICU. The news really freaked me out cos' I thought H1N1 only happened on papers and now it's happening on the people beside me. I found it unbelievable at first but subsequently this feeling turned into fear. I feared for his health.

But thank God he's fine now.

Anyways, everyone's doing fine now.

At least I am.

By the way I finally watched Slumdog Millionaire today.

I think the show was really beautifully crafted.

Jamal rocks!!

*~Jai Ho~*

But seriously this film makes me wanna go to India. =x

Ok back to facebook so I was browsing through my friend's pictures i.e. Keavie's, Chee Yin's,

Lokido's.. And their trips all looked so fun, although someone did kena food poisoning but

travelling is a fun thing don't u agree?

Especially with your sayangest.. ♥

And this makes me feel even lonelier now cos' Purp has gone to gym again. His goal is to join Mr. Penang. Ok I was just joking about the Mr. Penang thing haha. He's undeniably veeery into body building lately, taking all the supplements (i.e. protein, creatine etc), working out 5 days a week..

Honestly I was a bit freaked out at first cos' I thought he was too serious, come on imagine this, he works every day (5 days a week) from 8.00 a.m. to 6.30 p.m. and he has to go to gym every night. I really respect his determination and discipline sometimes.

But usually at nights.. His girlfriend is the one who gives him all the good massage lorr. ;p

Anyways, I'm very contented now.

If u ask me am I happy now I would answer u : definitely YES cos' my life is filled with colours and rainbows. ♥

♥ my mushroom.

coffee in the island

2009-08-13T07:40:00.009+01:00

Hello good afternoon world.

Hmmm.. Today feels so great, maybe because it's Friday again? TGIF! ♥

Went out with Keavie last night, we initially had no ideas where to go cos' we were both not in the mood to drink but yet we wanted to meet each other so bad lol
( lack of communication lately). ;p
So eventually I picked her up at Berjaya Hotel after her hi-tea with mom and we headed straight to Coffee Island, I especially love the water fans there. (is that called water fan I wonder?)

Anyways it's either coffee or tiger these days. ;p

As usual, we started talking once we saw each other.
We never went silent, never ran out of topic, not even a minute cos' that girl is actively funny and spontaneous and cute!

After ordering our drinks, we started taking pictures like nobody's business! ♥

I ♥ my hair here. Looks 'huge'.

She is still funny haha.
Especially when she told me she saw someone's photo on the paper and thought that someone was dead (which turned out that someone was actually made a Datuk and his photo came up on paper LOL)
The first thing that crossed her mind was :
OMG his dad is dead??

Don't u think she's so funny n cute at the same time? LOL.

Anyways.. If any of u happen to be free during the merdeka weekend i.e. 29th August, please show your support to our local flea market as Keavie's blogshop will be one of the sellers too.

♥ Applause~ ♥

Too bad I am SERIOUSLY broke now and have no extra budget for another trip to KL this month. But anyways I'm always here giving her moral support hehe. :)))
How good am I eh?

So dear readers and friends, if u happen to be in KL on the 29th, please don't forget to go n take a look of what's happening to our fashion world now as they will be selling all the chio + vintage + pre-loved stuffs. U will love it I'm sure as I myself am also a loyal supporter of
http://not-so-vintage.blogspot.com/ :)

Till then, ♥♥♥

P/S : She also bought me a purple top this year for my birthday. Thanks dear.
Everyone knows I love purple and everyone loves my hair. ♥

-PEACE-

P/P/S : And about the girl that Keavie wrote days ago *click here*
*ahem* I know her! To be precise I know her kuan long ago I just didn't know she never changed at all after all these years.
Still a desperate attention seeker.
I wonder if u know we are talking about u now.
Anyways, can't be bothered.

-PEACE.2.-

The beginning is the end is the beginning

2009-08-13T01:31:00.000+01:00

Send a heartbeat to

The void that cries through you

Relive the pictures that have come to pass

For now we stand alone

The world is lost and blown

And we are flesh and blood disintegrate

With no more to hate

Is it bright where you are

Have the people changed

Does it make you happy you're so strange

And in your darkest hour

I hold secrets flame

We can watch the world devoured in it's pain

Delivered from the blast

The last of a line of lasts

The pale princess of a palace cracked

And now the kingdom comes

Crashing down undone

And I am a master of a nothing place

Of recoil and grace

Is it bright where you are

Have the people changed

Does it make you happy you're so strange

And in your darkest hour

I hold secrets flame

We can watch the world devoured in it's pain

Time has stopped before us
The sky cannot ignore us
No one can separate us
For we are all that is left
The echo bounces off me
The shadow lost beside me
There's no more need to pretend
Cause now I can begin again

Is it bright where you are

Have the people changed

Does it make you happy you're so strange

And in your darkest hour

I hold secrets flame

We can watch the world devoured in it's pain

Strange

Happiness.2.

2009-08-10T18:01:00.006+01:00

We were at...

Hehe. Penang people will know lar. ;-p

No prizes for guessing though. :)

Happiness

2009-08-10T08:07:00.011+01:00

Hello. I was gone and I'm back again. :)

Do u miss me?

Oh, life after CLP is so free and easy. :))))

I wish I could freeze the time sometimes, so I can stay with my loved ones for the longest of time.

Well, another wishful thinking..

I haven't found a job yet, planned to find one but figured

that I might not have the same freedom and time anymore if I start working now and therefore, the plan is postponed.

I think I deserve a longer break until the impact of CLP is completely over.

Initially, I thought I would run away from Malaysia the moment CLP is over, but God knows why, when the exam was really over, I just wanted to stay here with the one I love.
And I'm officially 23 by the way.

Honestly, I feel old and young at the same time.

Old because I know when I go to Genting, I will not go to Theme Park anymore now.

Those andrenaline rushes thing just isn't my thing now. (Bye bye Roller coaster!)

And I feel young because I know my life has just begun.

A fresh new beginning.

A fresh new chapter.

And this year's birthday felt so different. :)

(More pictures will be up soon, here are some shots we took pre & post CLP.)

Us at Screwball, Sue's birthday. (My hair looks beautiful here!)

My bf came to visit me at YMCA :D

Me & YK at NWP. She gave me my favourite perfume for my birthday!

Thanks sweetie. ♥♥

Hehe. We were just trying to act cute. ;p

Oh by the way, as u can see from the pictures, I have cut my hair short again! :)
I did not know short hair has so many advantages until I cut it short :

1. I don't have to use conditioner or hair mask now as advised by my hairdresser cos' short hair will only look better if your scalp is dry and those products like conditioner or hair masks are mostly oily. Oh what a relieve to my pocket! Those products are not cheap.

2. I can wash my hair everyday now and I do not have to wait for it to dry. Saves time!

3. I don't have to comb my hair now everytime before I go out.
It looks best when it's messy.

4. I cannot survive with my long hair if I'm living in a country with such a hot weather.

Anyways, life's been treating me good.
Will be back soon with more pictures of my pre & post CLP life and updates on my birthday and the return of Bei Er, LOL.

♥ Loves ♥

2009-07-27T06:20:00.003+01:00

I'm back I'm back I'm back!!

2009-07-03T23:56:00.007+01:00

Finally I have so many things to blog about but I've got no time to write.

My exam officially starts on 13th July 2009. :(

So now I have no option but to study hard. Really, I'm starting to regret why I skipped so many classes last time, blame it on my laziness and lack of self-discipline. I'm really running out of time now. There are so much for me to study.

And I still haven't memorised any of the cases yet. Sigh.

Anyway, life's ok minus the exam. Getting fatter now as a result of too much junk food (e.g. Mc Nuggets, Twisties, Cottage Fries, Bak Kua, chocolates, Cadbury Zip, Ferrero Rocher, nasi lemak and KFCs) during the revision nights and stress. Sigh. I sometimes wonder why must there be exams. Aiya I'm just complaining so just let me blueekk. I've been studying for the past 10 hours already. :(

I deserve a break right?

And by the way, if u wanna know how my study table looks like, this is it at 2 a.m. during one of those nights when I was burning the midnight oil..

Gambateh people.

Tweet tweet

2009-05-30T06:04:00.002+01:00

Twitter is so fun!

I'm very into twitter right now that I almost forgot my blog exists. =p

Follow me at http://twitter.com/snowietham =)

And I'm starting to hate Saturdays. Bluekkkkk!

my hometown friendships =)

2009-05-21T08:09:00.013+01:00

Her name : Tang Ewhoay ( or better known as traveller)

Been friends since : 2002

His name : Ah Yik (my faithful listener)

Been friends since : 2002

Her name : Lim Xin Mei (my alter ego =p )

Been friends since : 2003

His name : Teh Yun Siew (my beloved brother)

Been friends since : 1999

Her name : Xindy Loh ( the confusee I call her =p )

Been friends since : 2003

I just wanna say a BIG THANK YOU to you all.

THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIENDS.
THANK YOU FOR BEING MINE. =)

I NEED U.

2009-05-20T16:56:00.004+01:00

I. N.E.E.D. Y.O.U.

She asked : would u take me away from here and start a new life with me?

He answered : Maybe.
Maybe someday we will do that. U know I can't now.

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I just need to hear one word from u. Just one word. A word that will take my breath away, a word to re-assure me. I'm sorry but I am the type of girl that needs assurance from time to time. I'm too sensitive and insecure I reckon.

But u refused to say it.

Maybe I don't deserve that one word from u.
Maybe u were right. That u can't live in my fantasy. That u have your life to go on too.

But God knows how much I need u.
God knows I'm true.

I just need to hear u say it.

That u will come and take me away.
That u will start a new life with me.
That u will protect me from all the things that might harm me.
That u will lurve me and sayang me no matter how I may become in the future.
That u will catch me when I fall.

U did not know how much I needed your words.
How much I wish we could just forget the past and ignore the future.

Your life is always about rationality.
Until u met me.
A girl who's always unpredictable and untamed.
A girl who thinks that life isn't about rationality.
A girl who thinks that life is like falling in lurve.

U fall and u learn from where u fall.

I know u have your worries, that there are limitations, commitments, responsibilities, and also financial security. But there is always a choice I believe.

I'm sorry.
But..

I'm tired of all the tears and rains.
I'm tired of waiting.

Give me now.

Just right now.

The only sunrise I ever watched in Newcastle.

2009-05-19T16:53:00.006+01:00

Rescue me
From everything
I just wanna live
I wish I could breathe

We're not Romeo, we're not Juliet.

2009-05-19T13:23:00.007+01:00

Me at Church Street last night. =)

This is story about a boy and girl
Trying find a life in the big world
Somehow they're together

There ain't much to the mystery
Misery loves company
She just waves her hand and says whatever

Well this ain't love, this ain't love
This ain't love at all
And he says

We're not Romeo, we're not Juliet
How long does it take to fill this emptiness?
We're just two lost souls and baby we got no regrets
We don't wanna say bye-bye
Babe it's just you and I
We're not Romeo, we're not Juliet

He ain't pretty with his hard old heart
Second generation immigrant scars
And he knows that this ain't heaven, no

She's all skinny like a cigarette
And he's the only thing, the only thing that she respects
And he's trying to make it better

This ain't love, this ain't love
This ain't love at all
And she says

We're not Romeo, we're not Juliet
You'd thought you'd seen it all, but you ain't seen nothin' yet
We're just two lost souls and baby we got no regrets
Now it's just you and I
We're nothin' unless we try
We're not Romeo, not Juliet

It has feel right but it never does
It has to be perfect but it never is
You wanna be sure but you never do
We're not Romeo or Juliet, it's just me and you

We're just two lost souls and baby we got no regrets
I don't wanna say bye-bye
Babe it's just you and I
We're not Romeo, we're not Juliet

No, no, no, we're not Romeo, we're not Juliet
How long does it take to fill this emptiness
We're just two lost souls and baby we got no regrets
Now it's just you and I
We're nothin' unless we try, oh no
We're not Romeo, or Juliet
No we're not, that's a fact

**We are not Romeo we are not Juliet**

2009-05-13T06:48:00.005+01:00

It is another raining night.
I love listening to the rain-drop sound in quiet nights like this.
It calms my mind and soul.

I wanna dance in this rain tonight.
I wanna dance the night away.
And our lives along with it.

I feel like years have gone by since I came back to Malaysia.
So much have happened.
I gained and I lost.
I lost and I found.

And then I realize..
What's wrong or right, it didn't matter and it doesn't matter.

Life is just too short.

Just let me sleep.

And forget.

Surprise!

2009-05-12T16:37:00.009+01:00

TA DAA~

I have finally cut my hair short. =)

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But originally this is what I wanted.

Cool right?
I simply love it! So sleek and beautiful.

But the hairdresser refused to cut for me.
He said it's too short and he wanted me to try a not-so-short hairstyle first.
He was afraid that I would regret cos' my hair was really long before I cut it short.

Well, I guess he just dunno me that well.
I'm one of the Katie girls. :-)

But anyway I listened to him.
He's professional ma.

I hope it's not too bad.

But anyway, your comments won't influence my mood also cos' I love my new haircut. =)

And no. I don't miss my long hair.

burning bridges

2009-05-05T08:40:00.004+01:00

5.5.2009

Tonight I'm gonna write about something I've been very reluctant to write since a long time ago.

I was asked by many people of what actually happened between me and my friends, because it seems to them (and also to me) that we just aren't that close anymore. I know many of them asked this out of concern, but I just did not know how to answer them. Perhaps I too dunno why.

But as time goes by, as they are all moving on with their lives, I figure that perhaps the answer is not so important after all. What matters the most is we had the best memories in life, I had the happiest time in my life.The 'downfall' of our friendship serves as a reminder for me. To remind me that I was once loved by true friends like them.

My best friend is leaving to Australia tomorrow. Yea.. Tomorrow.
I just came back from drinking with her and another friend.
I guess her leaving is what triggers me to write this post tonight. I have lost too many good friends in my life. They come and they go. I always know that they have their lives to go on too and I can't just expect them to stay where they are now.
Change is the law of life right?

I was betrayed, backstabbed, hurt by really really close friends before. And it feels really terrible, it's like u truly gave out your all, trusted them, believed in every single shit they said, but they took your trust away, put u through hell, said things that were really heartbreaking. But as I grow older, perhaps wiser, I realize that all the betrayals, backstabbings, all the hurtful things that once broke me down actually brought me to where I am today.
Time is really nature's best healer eh?

Thing that doesn't kill me will only make me stronger.

So.. I wanna thank those who left me, and those who are still standing by me. Thank u. My life wouldn't be so beautiful without u guys. =)

Sometimes one of the hardest things in life is to know which bridge to cross and which to burn.
If u're wondering what I'm up to lately.. I'm burning bridges. :-)

*As u can see this entry was written quite some time ago, so I'm actually feeling much better now. Thanks for concern! =)

A Midsummer Night's Dream

2009-04-30T16:47:00.004+01:00

女人啊.华丽的金钻.闪耀的珠光.为你赢得了女皇般虚妄的想像.

岂知你的周遭.只剩下势利的毒.傲慢的香.撩人也杀人的芬芳.

女人啊.当你再度向财富致敬.向名利欢呼.向权利高举臂膀.请不必询问那只曾经歌咏的画眉.

她已经不知飞向何方.因为她的嗓音已经干枯喑哑.

为了真实.尊荣和洁净灵魂的灭亡.

P/S: Thank you, Lokido, for reminding us once again.

Happy 23rd birthday Princess !!

2009-04-27T16:25:00.007+01:00

2006

2007

2008
(Sorry no cake here But I bought u a muffin nah, remember?)

2009 perhaps?

Happy birthday my dearest friend. =)

Will pass u your present this weekend. Go to class nah. =p

The day Malaysia wept with me.

2009-04-26T04:59:00.003+01:00

A lot have happened since I came back home a month ago.

* Najib was sworn in as Malaysia's 6th Prime Minister on 3.4.2009, taking over from ~~the muttonhead~~ Pak Lah who stepped down after leading Malaysia for over 5 years.

(OMG what will happen to Malaysia? A ~~murderer~~ to rule our country? I prefer the muttonhead though. Nevertheless, I wonder why no one has ever interviewed ~~the murderer~~ our Prime Minister of these allegations?
Perhaps our ISA really offers good protection for politicians like him?
Well, we all know that the ISA has been abused by the modern day politicians to shut up their opponents.)

Read this.

* The two cold-blooded inspectors who were involved in the murder case of Shaariibuu Altantuya were sentenced to death.

(I dunno but this case reminds me of the OJ Simpson case which happened last century. Maybe it's because the victims in both cases were also brutally killed?)

Read this too.

* According to Datuk Sheikh Yahya Sheikh Mohamed, department deputy director-general, it is estimated that 50,000 employees could lose their jobs this year as manufacturing companies downscale production.

* The IMF predicted that the global economy will shrink 1.3 % this year, which indirectly means that this could leave at least 10 million people around the world jobless.

(Sigh. This global downturn is affecting every corner of the globe.)

* The resignation of Penang's Deputy Chief Minister.

It's been raining a lot lately. Sigh.. Even the sky weeps.

Quote of the day

2009-04-25T11:31:00.005+01:00

Life is not about learning to survive the storm;

it is about learning to dance in the rain.

2009-04-23T19:14:00.002+01:00

I just came back from drinking again.

I know, I shouldn't drink so much because I'm still so weak and when I know my body cannot absorb too much alcohol.
But I couldn't help it could I?
I miss drinking so much.

I went singing earlier with an old friend of mine. It was really fun to hang out with him. He is very humourous.

Can u believe it? I sang the same song for more than 3 times. LOL.

'Sometimes love just ain't enough'.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

I'm very sleepy already. Will update again tomorrow. Nite nite people. :-)

LH Garden.

2009-04-22T07:08:00.021+01:00

So I went to LH garden with boy boy and the traveller yesterday.

All because boy boy has been asking me a zillion time to bring him there to see animals.
I wonder why kids love animals so much?

But I'm an animal-lover too. And since the traveller was free yesterday, I decided to bring him there. U just can't disappoint a 6-year-old kid right?

Boy was very excited when the parrot mimicked him.

The curious baby. ;-)

He was trying to tell us that the parrot had just said 'hello' to him. Haha.

And he kept telling us that this is not a monkey.
'This is Sun Wukong larr Gu Gu..'

Too much of 'Journey to the West'. =_='

The two Sun Wukongs were fighting. Monkeys are really naughty creatures.
I never like monkeys.

*Boy boy & the horsey*

*Me & the horsey*

I never knew that tigers can swim. And it's a 15 ft deep pond!

Me and the traveller. :-)

The three of us. Boy is sooooo cute!

I was quite disappointed to find out that they actually don't have real elephant there.
But then again, it is not a zoo. It's just a huge garden which has parrots, swans (black swans), leopards, snakes, sculptures of terracotta army, bonsai, deers, tigers, bears, koi carp fish, crocodiles and a lot of unpopular birds.

Nevertheless, I love their lane of nostalgia.

Click here to see their website.

U wouldn't believe if I tell u boy was the cameraman would u?
Yes, he was the one who helped to take this nice picture. :-)
My genes. =p

And this.

And this.

I seriously think that boy boy will become a photographer in the future.
He just likes camera so much.

He even captured the moment when I thought that I accidentally broke the elephant's tusk. =p

Scroll down to see..

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LOL.
No I didn't break it.

2009-04-21T06:22:00.012+01:00

For ages, philosophers have wondered over the paradox of which came first, the chicken or the egg.
Truth is, we can never have the answer.
Just like life, it's an unsolved mystery.

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I have not written for a while.
Well.. I'm back at hometown now, a sanctuary retreat I call it. :-)

My weight dropped tremendously since I came back from UK. I weigh only 41 kg now, my family is very worried about my health cos I'm already underweight and I just can't seem to gain a slight kilo no matter how much I eat.
But I'm a lot better now.

Good news is now that I'm back at home, I get to spend more time with my beloved family. My granny is getting older, she is still very strong and healthy, but her memory is fading. She will forget things she has just said a minute ago. And this scares me. I'm worried one day she will forget about us. All that I can do now is pray for her well being. I love u ah por, please stay healthy.

I actually dunno what to write. It's been too long since I really share my thoughts here I think. Maybe I find it hard to bare my heart to the world.

Cute right? I soooooo wanna cubit him! Gerram!

Remember my twin babies? They grow up so fast..

Boy boy & BB with my granny during her 75th birthday.
They are my granny's darling.

My family. =)

I guess that's all for today. I'm going to see leopard later with my boy boy and the traveller. :-)

Toodles.

Quote of the day.

2009-04-19T15:03:00.005+01:00

“Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn't it?

It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart
and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt you.
Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into
your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness.

It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.

It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love.”

2009-04-19T11:35:00.006+01:00

'I was always there
to catch u when u fall,
but you choose someone else to catch u.'

Shhhh.. Don't explain. U dunno what u've done.
U dunno what u've done to my life.

2009-04-17T21:16:00.003+01:00

Traveller!
Where have you come from?
Where are you going?

The moon has set
But the sun has not yet risen
In the chaos before dawn
Searching for the light
I press onward

To drive back the dark clouds of the mind
I seek the great tree unshaken by the storm
Will I spring up from the great earth of life?

2009-04-16T17:03:00.005+01:00

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Run, baby, run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we are not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we'll be
You and me

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'Wouldn't it be wonderful if we were old? Then we could say we survived all this. Everything would be uncomplicated, the way it was when we were young.'

P/S : Thanks for those who care. But I am too tired to write now. Will update tomorrow. Once again, thank you. Thank you for watching over me, and catching me when I fall.

2009-03-27T08:03:00.004Z

Does ART imitate LIFE?

Or does LIFE imitate ART?

Dear TYS,

2009-03-24T09:02:00.004Z

I figured that words just can't express how I'm feeling now. Will tell u more the next time u call. I'm OK I guess. Just need some time to get back to reality. Don't worry. =)

As I've said, words won't be appropriate tonight. When was the last time we both shared an Ipod together? Do me a favour will u? Listen to this..

Verve Pipe - The Freshman

When I was young I knew everything

She a punk who rarely ever took advice

Now I'm guilt stricken,Sobbing with my head on the floor

Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice

I can't be held responsible

She was touching her face

I won't be held responsible

She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember

What made us think that we were wise and

We'd never compromise

For the life of me I cannot believe

We'd ever die for these sins

We were merely freshmen

My best friend took a week'sVacation to forget her

His girl took a weeks's worth ofValium and slept

And now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his Head on the floor

Thinks about her now and how he never really Wept he says

I can't be held responsible

She was touching her face

I won't be held responsible

She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and

We'd never compromise

For the life of me I cannot believe

We'd ever die for these sins

We were merely freshmen

hey yeah

We've tried to wash our hands of all this

We never talk of our lacking relationships

And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our

Heads on the floor

We fell through the ice when we tried not to

Slip, we'd say

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face

And I won't be held responsible

She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and

We'd never compromise

For the life of me I cannot believe

We'd ever die for these sins

We were merely freshmen

For the life of me I cannot remember

What made us think that we were wise and

We'd never compromise

For the life of me I cannot believe

We'd ever die for these sins

We were merely freshmen

I miss those days when I could cry freely in front of u my friend.

Maybe it's really time to grow up now.

Truly yours,
Snowie.

Off to KL, JB and Singapore

2009-03-20T02:24:00.011Z

Yay! I will be off to KL, JB and Singapore for about a week. =)

It's a sponsored trip, free tickets and accommodation + all the partaying, I simply cannot say no right? It seems like my fellow friends miss me too much.

But I abso-fucking-lutely will miss my bed in Penang and my soul mate in Penang.

Yes, I'm going down to find BBrene Tan and also to meet up my best friend Ah Yik. His family moved to JB a year ago and I remember I promised I would find a time to go visit them. And this 23rd is his birthday! Perfect time to pay them a visit eh? =)

He will be so happy to see me lor.

But I'm seriously broke this month. =(

Sigh. So I won't be doing any shopping this trip.
My purpose is just to visit them and to spend time with them. I miss my friends alot too. But Singapore is a shopping heaven right?

Hmm hmm.. =p

Miss Chia Ai & me at Gurney last December.

And.. This is Ah Yik my BFF. He's a bar tender by the way.

Anyway, hope u all have a great weekend ahead and I will be back soon. Oh and I'm bringing my lappie with me, so no worries, I will update once I have time.

P/S : Dear TYS, I will exchange my diary the next time I write, promise.

P/P/S : PURPLE CHOONG, I WILL MISS U MISS U MISS U WHEN I'M GONE.

New York State of Mind

2009-03-19T01:18:00.004Z

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It comes down to reality-and its fine with me cause I've let it slide
Don't care if its chinatown or riverside
I dont have any reasons
I've left them all behind
I'm in a new york state of mind

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Random.

2009-03-18T08:14:00.012Z

Hehe this is just a random post.

Some pictures were taken months ago. =p

Us at Kurt's garden (Christmas 2008). And Kurt's actually Marcia's elder brother, how small the world is?
I just didn't know that Purp knows Kurt.

Well, this picture actually saddens me. Nic was still so fine that time..
Nevertheless, I like the Christmas tree.
And the turkey Kurt's mom made. It is one of the most delicious food on earth, trust me.

CNY lou sang =D
We are no businessmen but I heard this is what Penang people always do on CNY.
So, it's like a tradition.
We have gotta follow tradition right?

The two sisters. Gong Xi Gong Xi hope that u two will earn a lot a lot this year!!

CNY drinking session. We were at Balik Pulau. =p
And yes, that is Suki from One In A Million. She is unbelievably friendly and nice + she sings really well too.
I hate my bloodshot eyes to the max!! Make me look like a vampire. =(

LOL. No comments. =p
Note : But they are DEFINITELY not GAYS.
I call this 'tangkap basah'.
Hehe hana hana I actually framed them lar, they were innocent. =P

I'm not as sampat as them but I too love toilet. =p
It was actually Darrel's birthday that night, we were at G Hotel. Pardon us if we appear to be a little unusual here (well not me definitely, I mean the two guys above hehe).
It was alcohol influence. =)
Oh ya did I mention I love love love love their swimming pool?

I'm very into Tekken 5 lately. Call me lao beh or whatever. But playing Tekken 5 is my new found hobby. OK I know I'm really old-fashioned now cos' people now are either playing PSP or PS3 whereby I'm practically glued to my PS2.
Whatever.
Toodles. =)

Laser cosmos projector,I like!

2009-03-17T11:50:00.010Z

Ohh I'm so going to buy this book! It's called 'I believe you', written by a Singaporean (I dunno who), telling a story of a 17-year-old girl.

CLICK ON HERE TO READ THE STORY ONLINE.

But the website only has 11 chapters, and I really wanna find out what happens to Joanna in the story. Does anyone know where can I get the book? Probably MPH? I think it's more like a short story than a book. Anyway I heard this is a true story, so click on the link, will u? U sure will like the story too I'm sure. =)

By the way, I'm practically sitting under a million of stars now. =)
Thanks to Ann Ann. +) One of her admirers gave her this laser thing on her birthday (it's like a star-shaped projector), and it even has shooting star if u can just sit and pay attention and enjoy the beauty of the universe. I dunno where can we buy it but I'm definitely in love with this star-shaped projector. It is surely created by genius.

Well usually, Ann Ann's gifts from her admirers are always shared in the family. Hehe so I'm very glad that this time around, Purple gets to borrow this laser shooting thing. We love stars and the universe. It is very beautiful lor. Too bad that cameras cannot capture laser lights like this. U have gotta see it to believe it cos' no picture can do it justice.

Oh wait I found the picture online! The picture of the star-shaped projector! I googled it and it came out. +)

~Ta daa~

Ohh so now I know it's called a laser cosmos projector. Click on here to read more.

It's astonishingly beautiful and romantic. U won't believe how magical this projector is. I'm amazed, really.

Thanks Ann !!

swollen finger =(

2009-03-16T03:43:00.006Z

I had a 'ring situation' this morning.
Now I have a swollen eye (I think my body is too heaty and my room is dusty too due to all the work) and a swollen finger. Thanks to the ring I was wearing. =(

I couldn't take the ring out this morning no matter how hard I tried. Do u have any ideas how bloody painful it is? Look at my finger. It was two times bigger than my middle finger this morning when I was trying to take it out. Two times !!

I'm starting to wonder if it is because of the new feng shui of my room. Anyone knows anything about feng shui? What does feng shui say about purple colour? Maybe I should try reading some feng shui books?

Anyway, it is still quite early for me to really wake up, it's only 9.00 am. I will write again when my finger gets better later. Now what I need the most is some rest.

Toodles people..

Painting our room (Part 1)

2009-03-14T13:15:00.010Z

Guess what we are doing now?

Hehe we are painting our room now. =D

Damn now only I know painting is so hard. Do u know that we spent one whole night just to measure the lines and to stick the newspaper? All because of this wall lor, I missed my class again this morning. =(

It was the last class of my Evidence Law and I really wanted to go. But I was too tired to wake up, and even Purple couldn't wake me up. Sigh, guess I will have to do my own revision..

Anyway, I figured that I won't be able to help much so I'm here blogging, hehe. Purp just sayang me too much he knows I'm only gonna ruin the whole wall if I help, so he offers me one nice place in the room so that I can sit down and blog. How considerate eh? =p

But I soooooo wanna contribute. =p

Wanna see how our room looks like now?

My superman doing what he is best at.

Me the reporter, reporting live from our room.

Our tools. All sharpened. =p

Stay tuned. The new wall will be revealed soon. I'm going to help now. =)

My happy day =)

2009-03-13T07:48:00.006Z

Hehe I'm so happy today. This weekend is gonna be very fun. We are finally painting our room!
Wooo Hoooo~~
I guess I don't have to specify what colour we are buying, everyone knows I love Purple. So, purple is our first and only choice. =)

I just came back from hometown last Wednesday. I'm very glad too cos I managed to spend some time with my family and friends.

My happy family & the Purple Dinasaur. =p

Oh ya and I just had my hair cut again. =)

Alor Star is very small by the way. I met Pei Wen (one of my long-lost friends) at the hair salon that I went to. She is currently working there as an assistant hair dresser, seems like she's having a good life now. Anyway, I like my new hair cut very very much. =)

Cos I think it makes me look younger. LOL.

Besides that, I also went to eyelash perming today. So now I don't need my eyelash curler anymore! I don't quite like that metal thing, reason is I always end up curling my eyelid instead of my eyelash, I'm a very clumsy girl. Putting on mascara seems like a very easy thing to do now with my eyelash permed, saves time and energy. =)

No more messy and clumpy lashes! +D

Purple suggested to go to The Ship for dinner today. This is what makes me so happy today. Nothing to celebrate and yet we are making today a celebration. :-)
I'm very lucky, to have found someone who sayang me so much.. Thanks moor kue, muaahh!!

P/S: Photos of Siew Juan's wedding will be up soon. Oh and I just remember that I have not written our Langkawi trip yet (I know I know it is March already..) Wait up people. I will write soon once I have all the pictures with me.

P/P/S: Bei Er is coming back to Malaysia next week!! *drum rolls* WELCOME HOME BABE!!

Toodles.

James Blunt - Tears And Rain

2009-03-12T10:53:00.010Z

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

Tears and Rain.

Tears and Rain.

Far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

*My theme song for the month. Enjoy the video. James Blunt's a real talent by the way. Love every song of his.*

2009-03-11T14:53:00.002Z

WHO'S GONNA CATCH ME WHEN I FALL?

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Temptation

2009-03-05T08:48:00.006Z

OK. So lately this is what I'm up to, reading stories. Bible stories. =)

And this one is my favourite story of all. I think mainly it is because people have been tempted since the time of Adam and Eve. However, this is about a story of how Jesus fought the devil's temptation and won, each temptation being refused by Jesus with a quote of scripture from the Book of Deuteronomy.

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After His baptism, Jesus spent time alone with God in the wilderness. For forty days, He ate no food. He grew very, very hungry.

"Jesus," called a voice, "if You are really God's Son, why don't You turn these stones into bread so that You can eat?"

Jesus recognized Satan's voice, and although He was hungry, He said, "It is written, 'Man does not live by eating only bread, but by every word that comes from God's mouth.'"

Then Satan showed Jesus the peak of the temple and said, "If You are really God's Son, You could jump from here and Scripture says angels would catch You."

"It also says, 'Do not tempt God,"' answered Jesus.

So Satan took Jesus to the top of a tall mountain and said, "Look down there. See all that lies below You, every kingdom, every single thing on the earth. Bow down and worship me, and I will give it all to you."

"Get away from me, Satan!" commanded Jesus. "It is written, 'Worship God alone, and serve only Him.'"

At that, Satan fled, and angels came down and cared for Jesus.

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Let's pray that we will one day learn how to resist a temptation, like how Jesus did.

The pastor & the son

2009-03-04T07:39:00.002Z

I figured that this story would inspire more people if I post it here. So instead of forwarding it, I decided to copy the whole story here and I hope that u people will take some time and read it. Thank you. =)

Every Sunday afternoon, after the morning service at the church, the Pastor and his eleven year old son would go out into their town and hand out Gospel Tracts.

This particular Sunday afternoon, as it came time for the Pastor and his son to go to the streets with their tracts, it was very cold outside, as well as pouring down rain.

The boy bundled up in his warmest and driest clothes and said, "OK, dad, I'm ready."
His Pastor dad asked, "Ready for what?"
"Dad, it's time we gather our tracts together and go out."

Dad responds, "Son, it's very cold outside and it's pouring down rain."
The boy gives his dad a surprised look, asking, "But Dad, aren't people still going to Hell, even though it's raining?"
Dad answers, "Son, I am not going out in this weather."

Despondently, the boy asks, "Dad, can I go? Please?"
His father hesitated for a moment then said, "Son, you can go. Here are the tracts, be careful son.."
"Thanks Dad!"

And with that, he was off and out into the rain.

His eleven year old boy walked the streets of the town going door to door and handing everybody he met in the street a Gospel Tract.

After two hours of walking in the rain, he was soaking, bone-chilled wet and down to his VERY LAST TRACT. He stopped on a corner and looked for someone to hand a tract to, but the streets were totally deserted.

Then he turned toward the first home he saw and started up the sidewalk to the front door and rang the door bell. He rang the bell, but nobody answered. He rang it again and again, but still no one answered. He waited but still no answer.

Finally, this eleven year old trooper turned to leave, but something stopped him. Again, he turned to the door and rang the bell and knocked loudly on the door with his fist. He waited, something holding him there on the front porch!

He rang again and this time the door slowly opened. Standing in the doorway was a very sad-looking elderly lady. She softly asked, "What can I do for you, son?" With radiant eyes and a smile that lit up her world, this little boy said, "Ma'am, I'm sorry if I disturbed you, but I just want to tell you that *JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU* and I came to give you my very last Gospel Tract which will tell you all about JESUS and His great LOVE."
With that, he handed her his last tract and turned to leave. She called to him as he departed. "Thank you, son! And God Bless You!"

Well, the following Sunday morning in church Pastor Dad was in the pulpit. As the service began, he asked, "Does anybody have any testimony or want to say anything?"

Slowly, in the back row of the church, an elderly lady stood to her feet. As she began to speak, a look of glorious radiance came from her face, "No one in this church knows me. I've never been here before. You see, before last Sunday I was not a Christian. My husband passed on some time ago, leaving me totally alone in this world.

Last Sunday, being a particularly cold and rainy day, it was even more so in my heart that I came to the end of the line where I no longer had any hope or will to live.

So I took a rope and a chair and ascended the stairway into the attic of my home. I fastened the rope securely to a rafter in the roof, then stood on the chair and fastened the other end of the rope around my neck. Standing on that chair, so lonely and brokenhearted I was about to leap off, when suddenly the loud ringing of my doorbell downstairs startled me.

I thought, "I'll wait a minute, and whoever it is will go away." I waited and waited, but the ringing doorbell seemed to get louder and more insistent, and then the person ringing also started knocking loudly. I thought to myself again, "Who on earth could this be? Nobody ever rings my bell or comes to see me." I loosened the rope from my neck and started for the front door, all the while the bell rang louder and louder.

When I opened the door and looked I could hardly believe my eyes, for there on my front porch was the most radiant and angelic little boy I had ever seen in my life. His SMILE, oh, I could never describe it to you! The words that came from his mouth caused my heart that had long been dead, TO LEAP TO LIFE as he exclaimed with a cherub-like voice, "Ma'am, I just came to tell you that JESUS REALLY DOES LOVE YOU." Then he gave me this Gospel Tract that I now hold in my hand.

As the little angel disappeared back out into the cold and rain, I closed my door and read slowly every word of this Gospel Tract. Then I went up to my attic to get my rope and chair. I wouldn't be needing them any more.

You see---I am now a Happy Child of the KING. Since the address of your church was on the back of this Gospel Tract, I have come here to personally say THANK YOU to God's little angel who came justin the nick of time and by so doing, spared my soul from an eternity in hell."
There was not a dry eye in the church. And as shouts of praise and honor to THE KING resounded off the very rafters of the building, Pastor Dad descended from the pulpit to the front pew where the little angel was seated.

He took his son in his arms and sobbed uncontrollably. Probably no church has had a more glorious moment, and probably this universe has never seen a Papa that was more filled with love & honor for his son... Except for One.

Our Father also allowed His Son to go out into a cold and dark world. He received His Son back with joy unspeakable, and as all of heaven shouted praises and honor to The King, the Father sat His beloved Son on a throne far above all principality and power and every name that is named.
Blessed are your eyes for reading this message.

Don't let this message die, read it again and pass it to others. Heaven is for His people! Remember, God's message CAN make the difference in the life of someone close to you.
Please share this wonderful message...

"Faith is the affirmation and the act that bids eternal truth be present fact." Coleridge

Just 3 Words

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back -
1. Time 2. Words 3. Opportunity

Three things in life that can destroy a person -
1. Anger 2. Pride 3. Unforgiveness

Three things in life that you should never lose-
1. Hope 2. Peace 3. Honesty

Three things in life that are most valuable -
1. Love 2. Family & Friends 3. Kindness

Three things in life that are never certain -
1. Fortune2. Success3. Dreams

Three things that make a person -
1. Commitment 2. Sincerity 3. Hard work

Three things that are truly constant -
Father - Son - Holy Spirit

I ask the Lord to bless you, as I pray for you today; to guide you and protect you, as you go along your way. God's love is always with you, God's promises are true. And when you give God all your cares, you know God will see you through.

Eating disorder =(

2009-02-25T05:24:00.005Z

I think I'm having some kind of eating disorder.

I can't eat at all, and the scariest thing is I don't feel hungry at all.

What is wrong with me?

I used to be chubby and cuddly and now I look so emaciated.

I haven't eaten a proper meal for maybe a week already.

I seriously don't feel like eating at all.

Yes I used to skip my meals but it wasn't as bad as this. Now this eating disorder is affecting every part of my life.

I dunno why but I totally lost my appetite.

I don't wanna be an anorexic.=(

Maybe this is normal.

My stomach is just taking a break, it is not on strike ma at least.

Right?

It is just like me, as stubborn as me.

Tell me I am normal.

Sigh. I want the old healthy me back.

The Revolution

2009-02-22T14:25:00.019Z

Hello people good morning. =)

It's beautiful Monday again don't u think? Ohh again I cannot believe that I missed my class yesterday bacause I woke up late. *I was too tired and I blacked out once I hit the bed on Friday night*

Well, I think today's gonna be a really wonderful day because later tonight, me and Purple are going to see wallpaper for our room! Yippie! +)

New change for our room. Isn't this exciting? We both love colours and arts. And this time, the change is gonna be ENORMOUS.

Reason being, Purp thinks that I've been lazy since Christmas holiday (well, it's quite true cos' I'm still singing Christmas songs in my head haha) and he wants me to study hard (which means no more movies on weekdays / no more gaming / no more procrastinating *sob* ) so we are going to get a study table for me.

OK, this is not as fun as the new wallpaper, but it is what I need right? *He has two dekstops in his room and hence, two computer desks, two big wooden racks, a cupboard and a queen-sized bed* Considering the size of his room, it is really impossible to even think of a place to put our new table.

Therefore..

We decided to REFURBISH our room. =)

First, the super huge HELLBOY poster will be removed and replaced by our new wallpaper. Speaking of wallpaper, his cousin Ann Ann's new shop in Island Plaza is our our inspiration. We want something like that, class, comfort and colours. Oh yea her shop is now open at M-Floor Island Plaza, Bodytone Wellness Studio. It's like a fitness studio where u pay and go exercise, but their concept is much more better.

The lady in blue is Ann Ann the sweetie. She always looks fine I wonder how. Oh yea and the lady in red is Bei Er! I missssssss her so much! She is now in China. =(

They have this first-in-Malaysia Power Plate and their tagline is 'FEEL THE FITNESS REVOLUTION'. It is the first exclusive Power Plate authorized training center in Malaysia. In case u dunno what a Power Plate is, check this out. Anyway, I have tried it and I think it's worth the money *I dunno it is exactly how much a session, cos I got the free session from Ann Ann but I think it is about RM60 a session but if u sign up for three sessions, they will give u a special rate. U can log on to www.BodyTone.com.my for more information.

So if u wanna get slim and toned and u don't quite like all the heavy work in gym, u can try out this Power Plate, it is just awesome. And u will sweat a alot too. Even 'A' list celebrities like Elle Macpherson loves Power Plate.

And here are some pictures of her studio. She is so smart right? She used to work for Emirates Airlines.

See the wallpaper behind?

This is Ann Ann, Purple's cousin. She is so gorgeous don't u think?

OK, so no Hellboy poster, no Spiderman poster, no Naruto poster, it is going to be simple and cozy. We plan to replace the current computer desks now with two new tables. And we want to put a rug in our room too! Persian rug is good but we have limited space. So we are thinking of something like this..

Or maybe this...

Or maybe this... But definitely not this colour, too dull.

We want dark purple or maybe blue.

Anyway, I'm so excited just thinking of it! Oh ya and I forgot to mention about my walking wardrobe! Hehe! Yeah, a walking wardrode. =) Well, thanks to Ann Ann again cos she and her sister bought two yesterday at Gama (or was it Giant honey?), and I think it is what I need also, I have too many clothes a girl can have. By the way, Ann Ann and her sister Ann Ching have just moved in to our block. Well.. Welcome to Taman Kheng Tian!! =)

So.. Stay tuned my loves. Have a not-so-blue-Monday everyone!

XOXO

2009-02-19T08:59:00.003Z

OK, so this happened very near to me. Yet I was asleep when it happened. Haha. When the whole Penang-ers were talking about how could this happen and cursing the traffic, I was in my la la land sleeping away.

But I was shocked really when Purp told me over the phone.
And it leaves me wondering...

If bad things usually happen only when we are sleeping away, would things be different if we don't sleep?

Seriously, have u ever been woken up by a midnight phone call telling u that something bad happened?

I remember reading a news about a husband who lost his wife when they were sleeping. The wife had this heart attack and the husband didn't know because he was soundly and deeply asleep at the time when the love of his life was fighting with the God of Death.
Unfortunately, she lost the battle. She died. She died in the arms of her husband.

And there are usually only two responses to the story above; people either think she was very lucky to die in the arms of her husband (they think that this is the most mercy way of dying) or people like me, who felt the pain of the husband. Who cried for the death of the wife. It was just too sudden don't u think?

Maybe things like a toppled crane, sudden heart attack, murder, rape or even accidents happened because there are really things that we dunno why they happened, and our part is just to face them and accept. No questions asked.

Source : The STAR online

GEORGE TOWN: A crane which toppled on the Penang Bridge early Thursday morning caused massive jams along the Jelutong Expressway and the Bayan Lepas coastal road heading towards the mainland.

A spokesman from Penang Bridge Sdn Bhd said the incident occurred at about 4am.
“The accident occurred at KM3.6 after the middle span. The boom of the crane fell into the sea and caused the crane to topple.

“The lanes heading towards the mainland are closed now and we’re currently using contra flow, which we’re using the lanes from the opposite direction.

“So now we have one lane heading towards the mainland and one lane heading to the island,” he said.

Normal traffic flow is expected to have resumed by 11.45am.

My sweet Monday

2009-02-16T03:04:00.007Z

DT & Purple Junior

Awwwwww.. I love Mondays. =)

U see, if u're umemployed and as lazy as I am, u'd understand why we love Mondays. It's like a rest day for us all. When all of the rest are gone to work, we are lying on our cozy beds dreaming away. Well I actually cannot believe that I am still wide awake now haha. I woke up at 6.30 am this morning! Unbelievable eh? Yes 6.30 am. I thought I would fall back to sleep after he left to work but apparently I can't.

Nevermind, maybe I should go and do my laudry, clean up our room, throw the dead flower away, wash my hair, remove my red nail polish, and.. Hmm I think that's all. By the way I heard the new film by Andy Lau and Shu Qi is very nice, has anyone seen? Is it good?

So.. About our valentine.. It was sweet and sweaty.

We woke up very early that morning, and we kept greeting each other 'Happy Valentine's Day', it was lame haha. But we enjoyed it. After spending a total of 2 hours in bed playing games and cards, we went out to celebrate February the 14th.

Everything was perfect. We went to Tanjong Country Club. Haha, yes, horse riding, sounds romantic ma. Aikss this was actually one of the dreams I had while I was in UK, and he wanted to make my dream come true, to ride a horse. He is always the guy who seems to be able to do anything for u. Superman I call him. Sometimes I call him a magician. But of course the experience was totally different from the one I had in my dream lar. LOL. I tell u, in the dream I was like a heroine, running away with my hero..

Our new found hobby +)

I know this picture looks rather blurry and not nice, well it seems like the club does have good horses but not good photographer.

I'm on the horse +)

Sometimes u just can't explain your dream can u?

After Tanjong Country Club, we headed straight up to Sunset Bistro at Batu Feringhi. It was quite romantic there, u know, balloons, pink colours, couples everywhere.. And guess what, we even saw guys who proposed to their girlfriends there. It was so sweet right? I mean, gorgeus beach, big sun, flowers, roses, I guess it would be hard for a girl to reject such a proposal lor. We even saw one guy who popped out the BIG question by putting it on banner which was then tied on the parachute the guy was flying. How romantic??

But mine wasn't that dramatic lar, it was quiet and romantic. =)

And I had the most intense, longest and biggest "O" that night. *blush*

Menanizer

2009-02-13T15:28:00.004Z

Yes, u read it right. That is 'menanizer'. Period.

I just realize that my guy is the most humourous man in the world. LOL.

We were casually chatting as usual after we came back from Queensbay Mall, u know, shopping is tiring, oh ya and we bought a dustbin! =)

Okay, pictures of our new addition to the room (it's a really cool dustbin lor) will be up soon but now I just wanna share this biggest joke with u all. It all started with my question, just now after shopping, I asked him what he thinks of me now and he answered me a 'menanizer'.

I laughed and asked him what's a 'menanizer' and he said it in-a-matter-of-fact-way that if womanizer is a word, then 'menanizer' should be a word too.

I was still laughing when I heard his 'answer'. He continued to explain to me, and I'd like to quote his whole sentence here, 'Because u're 'menanizing' me ma.'

What a cute valentine I've got..
Don't u think?

2009-02-13T07:55:00.002Z

Hello good evening people! Thank God it''s Friday again! =)
I'm so happy now I feel like singing. +)

I'm at Borders Starbucks now and I'm alone. But luckily I've got this laptop and millions of books with me! =D
The only thing that pisses me off is they have made this Starbucks a 'no-smoking-Starbucks'. Another stupid thing by the management. Nevermind, I guess there are really alot of health-conscious people out there.

Oh yea, and for those people who always think that life is beautiful, please go and read Keavie's scary encounter last night. Click here.
This isn't fun. She actually saw the guy's body and how he died. Life is short, people. 'Sembahyanglah sebelum anda disembahyangkan'.

In case u're wondering why I didn't go shopping when I had the chance, it is because I already had two new necklaces with me. Yippie~
They are to go with my dress on Siew Juan's wedding day. And the good news is Forever 21 now has this promotion; BUY 2 FREE 1. Buy any two pieces of jewelry (must be more than RM120)and u can get the third one free!!

That's all for now lar. Purp is coming to meet me soon.
Toodles.

2009-02-12T10:18:00.008Z

I'm such a lazy girl. I cannot believe that I'm still in bed while I'm typing this. I haven't even turned on the light yet haha. Ohh I really dunno what is happening to me. I can't sleep at nights and that makes it impossible for me to wake up in the mornings. I've been like this for almost a week already. Is there really something about me that I should be aware of?

Last night after he turned off the light, I was still tossing and turning in bed until I thought I heard some noise coming out from kitchen. U know what, initially I wanted to go out and see what is going on but the longer I waited (cos' I wanted to make sure that the noise was really coming from kitchen), the more afraid I was. And after half an hour maybe, I fell asleep. =p

But this noise that I heard last night is still bothering me now.

Nevermind, Purple has just told me that it was his aunt who was in the kitchen yesterday. Alright then, maybe I should just forget about it. Hey, there can't be a ghost in his kitchen right? A hungry ghost? Lagi not possible.

Us at Langkawi last Christmas.

We just had our tattoos touched up last Sunday. A day before Thaipusam. And speaking of Thaipusam, this year Thaipusam just wasn't fun at all. Aiya, maybe things just aren't that fun anymore if we are a grown up now. Nothing is fun anymore. Over the years, we replace our childhood congkak with the latest technology, Ipods, brand new mobiles, we don't hold the buah guli in our hands anymore, we hold PDA; we replace our Vitagens with beers; we replace our barbie dolls with expensive shoes and bags; when things go wrong, we go to pubs, we go shopping; we just don't believe in all those soul searching thingy anymore.

And the saddest thing is we don't think long hair is romantic anymore. =(

Aiya I don't wanna write about this already can I?
I don't wanna be sitting here and writing about this with questions in my head. I should be with my valentine now discussing about Valentine's Day. =p

Hehe.. We eventually came to an agreement that we both should work together and plan a romantic night this Saturday. =)
Reason being, we are now in a relationship together and we are just too old for the 'surprises' game. In short, no surprises except our presents. O.o

So, everything is pretty much in plan now. From breakfast to midnight snacks, we have already thought it over. Haha.
This is so fun isn't it? Planning Valentine's together with your valentine. =)

Let's just hope that everyone gets to be with their valentine on this big day.
(which indirectly means I'm not going to class this Saturday Keavie. Thanks.)

Love is in the air

2009-02-11T06:17:00.006Z

I cannot believe today is 11th already! This means I have less than 3 days now to prepare what I should give to Purple for Valentine. OMG.. It seems like I'm having a too-happy-until-I-forget-time. Shit. I haven't planned on what to wear yet!

Don't ask me what I'm doing on the big occasion, I myself have no idea as well. Shit, should I book a restaurant now or will it be too late? But I don't want waste another beautiful night in a bar full with people. We need more space, that's why I've been thinking about getting out of the city for the weekend. But where to? I have no idea at all, valentine's is right around the corner! Maybe I will just cook him something different and buy him a bottle of good wine. But I wanna do more. This is our first Valentine together. We didn't get to celebrate it together last year as I was in UK drinking my liver away. =)

Ohh.. I can't believe it is Valentine's Day already. What did I miss? It seems like the older u get, the more we want to compete with time. Everything we use is anti-ageing. Anti-ageing eye cream, anti-ageing facial cleanser, anti-ageing wrinkle free face cream and bla bla bla. I'm afraid of ageing too in fact. But that is just the fact we need to face right, ageing is part of the circle. We can do nothing to fight it, not when we are not Madonna.

Should I still wear purple on Valentine's? Will I receive roses again this year? It seems like I have more questions for my Valentine than it has for me. Haha. But no more beers this year please. I've had enough with Miss Tan Chia Ai back in UK last year and it wasn't romantic at all. All I want is a romantic night.

With candles and music..

With sweet kisses and chocolates..

With the right dress and nice hair..

Awww.. I can't wait for Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day everyone xoxo

the pages I've turned are the lessons I've learned

2009-02-07T07:07:00.006Z

U know, some people aren't born stupid. Some people, they are just there to mess up your life, ruin your life. To make your life miserable, to see you fall, there are people like them everywhere. In UK, back in Malaysia, in Penang or even Alor Star. We just dunno how many of them are actually out there.

Sometimes it seems like we are surrounded by all the people like them, I call them the SSI (Super Stupid Idiot), they are fucking everywhere. Therefore we have gotta learn to deal with them and remove them from our lives before they mess with it. Because they will usually act like a fool before they fool u. It's hard to deal with them u know.

Sigh. Which is what I need to learn too.
I dunno. Maybe we can try ignoring these people? Some they just want attention, so I think ignoring them may seem like a good way. They will feel abandoned and eventually they will leave. Furthermore, I think direct confronting will only result in serious consequences. They will be provoked and they will think of an even 'better' way to treat u.

Aiya, just be careful with these people la. I just met one this morning, who purposely wanted to provoke me and in order to prevent a fight, I removed him decided to remain silent until he attacks again.
Wish me luck friends. =)

P/S: I'm very very VERY in love with the song 'Welcome to my truth' by Anastacia lately. I'd like to share the lyrics here with u all. Hope u'll like it. =)

Sentimental days
In a misty clouded haze
Of a memory that now feels untrue
I used to feel disguised
Now I leave the mask behind
Painting pictures that aren't so blue
The pages I've turned are the lessons I've learned

Somebody bring up the lights
I want you to see (Don't You Feel Sorry For Me)
My life turned around
But I'm still living my dreams (Yes it's true I've been)
I've been through it all
Hit about a million walls
Welcome to my truth..
I still love
Welcome to my truth..
I still love

Tangled in a web
With a pain hard to forget
That was a time that
I've now put to rest
Oh, the pages I've turned are the lessons I've learned

Sentimental days
In a mist of clouded haze
Of a memory that now feels untrue

Love me tender love me sweet

2009-02-06T07:45:00.006Z

Hey people, good afternoon!

I just woke up from a quiet nice sleep an hour ago. Arrrghh.. This is just so perfect, I can sleep as much as I want now. LOL.

Anyway, today is Friday again which means I have class tomorrow. Sigh. Where is my textbook by the way? And where is my pencil case? Errr.. It doesn't seem like I'm ready for classes after a long break. I just feel like lazing around and chilling y'know..

Purp has gone to work as usual; and I'm left alone again like usual. Hmm.. In case u're wondering, sometimes I do wonder too whether am I gonna be with him for the rest of my life? It's still too early to think about that really. Perhaps I'm too young. As I have always said, it is never easy to maintain the passion and the sweetness of the love if two people have been together for a long time. The relationship curve, remember?

And for us, it's almost 1.5 years now. I'm embarassed to say but I must state that the longest relationship that I've ever had was only 2 years+. Considering how long have I been dating; since I was sweet 16.

I dunno if any of u have ever experienced this, but please tell me if u have. Sometimes I really had this urge to tell him that I lurve him so much and I don't wanna wait anymore, that I wanna be his wife, be the mother of his child, be the one to kiss him before he sleeps every night. But there are also times when I felt like I hate him so much and I want to run away from him, and that I would never wanna see him again. This is too extreme and I must admit that I'm scared.

I am still scared even after all the things that we have done and said..
I feel so helpless at times.

When I was in UK, everything felt so real even though we were so far apart.

But when I'm back to the island where we belong, things started to fall apart, it feels like a dream to me now. And the strangest thing is, we both know we ain't the perfect couple, we rose and we fell, we fell terribly; but yet our bond is getting stronger as day goes by. My thirst for him is never ending. I miss him even when he's just outside bathing. How weird is this huh?

He once told me he has never felt this happy in life until he met me.
I too wanna tell him that I have never imagined I could lurve someone this much before I met u.

I always believe that lurve always finds a reason for us. And it absofuckinglutely is the reason why there is hatred, grudge, fear, jealousy, and forgiveness. They all begin with lurve.

Love me tender

Love me sweet

Never let me go

You have made my life complete

And I love you so.

My friend is getting married!!

2009-02-05T09:02:00.009Z

To be honest, I really can't type well if I'm not using my laptop lor. U wouldn't wanna know how many typing mistakes I've made in this one sentence or how many times I pressed 'delete'.

But I need a new laptop ler. Budget is quite tight lately. On the first day of CNY, I've already spent half of my ang pow money to buy facial cleanser. Sigh, I am so broke now larr..

Anyway, my friend, Siew Juan is getting married next month. Hooray for her!! I'm just so glad that she's found the one this time and finally they are tying the knot! =D

How sweet is that? I'm so happy that I have just decided to splurge myself on a pair of new shoes for her wedding. =)

Hehe, no la, I'm really happy for my friend u know. With the right person, marriage seems like such a beautiful thing to do.

And she asked me to be her bridesmaid! =X

I have never been a bridesmaid before and I dunno what I'm supposed to do on the big day? What if I spoil her dress? What if I happen to step on her wedding gown and she trips over? What if I misplace the ang pows? Sigh. Being a bridesmaid isn't so fun after all. There are a lot of things u need to take care of.

Aiya, I can't be bothered lar. I will just wait for her to confirm with me the date again because I've got my stuffs to settle too this week. Heroes Season 3 finish watching already, done reading "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom, have had my hair cut, hmm... I think the next thing I'm gonna do is perhaps slimming down. I've gained alot of weights, thanks to all the good food I had during CNY. At least 3 kgs lor.

P/S: Damn, I can't find any pictures of me and Siew Juan lor. Nevermind, I will post up her wedding pictures here soon. She is damn skinny now by the way. Jealous pun. -green-eyed -

2009-02-04T09:22:00.005Z

There is really nothing much to do in Penang island. And I'm getting sick with it. The only thing I hear everyday is 'robbery, burglary, murder, retrenchment, factory closing down, economy downturn and bla bla bla..'

It just keeps repeating. The same thing that happened to my neighbour happened to your cousin. It seems like everyone has got something to do with divorce. Some are getting to know it, some are getting through it, some are already over it. It's like watching a drama. Dramatic, the word that I often use these days. Haha.

Really, imagine this, it's quite hard to believe but adultery, pregnancy, abortion, burglary, theft, break-ups, accident, death, hospitalization, voo doo, black magic, they really happened in my life, in my circle, on the people around me. Purple's cousin passed away in a car crash in Singapore last week; his sister is seeking for divorce; and the poor little baby will be left to be a child of a divorcee. Sigh. Life really isn't fair, is it?

Well, I am actually quite enjoying my life now, at least I don't have to go to work anymore. Hehe, I think I have done a correct decision resigning. I have more time for myself now and those who know me know that this is a very important thing to me. I'm just weird I know.

But anyway, a peaceful world without fights and wars is really what I want. Let's pray for our common dream to come true: a better tomorrow.

Some things are true whether u believe in them or not.

2009-02-03T08:38:00.004Z

I have never felt so free in life. It's true. I just realize sometimes all we have to do is just to stop all what we are doing and enjoy the silence and freedom that we deserve. Simple as that. But many people, as far as I can see, are still holding strong onto what they believe is true, even though they already know that the things that they want will not come true.

It is just so painful. To see people around me struggling and forcing themselves to believe in what others believe. They worship people who they think are righteous and they condemn people who they think are evil. Well, I have only one question when it comes to judging a person. How well do we think we know the person? Life is always a mystery. We won't know who is the righteous one or who is the bad guy until the day we die. Some don't even get a chance to find out even when they die. It is always like that, I just haven't learnt about this in my college.

We all have our little dark secrets which we will never ever tell anyone, including our loved ones. Pretty understandable, the more we love someone, the more afraid we are to let them know that we have flaws too. Some people are just afraid that their flaws are not acceptable by the culture by the people.

I'm always the fighter. The one who fights for truth, even when the whole world is against me, I still think that everyone is entitled to the truth. Therefore, I hate liars the most. I still don't understand why people lie, maybe it's just part of them, it cannot be taken away and it cannot be removed.

U may think I must be out of my mind to be saying this, but all of us are wicked. Don't let your ignorance fool u. We are not what we see. We are never the one we thought we know.

And the reason why I say I feel so free now is because the truth will be revealed soon. All I have to do is to wait for it.

2009-02-02T06:25:00.005Z

I know I may have gone for a long time now.
But I am back.

Watch me.

I'm gonna play this game of life beautifully.

Watch me.

Happy Christmas!

2008-12-24T19:45:00.005Z

Hello people~
Happy Christmas!!

Well.. I guess I've got the best Christmas present in life.
A lurve that everyone dreams of. And I am still very touched by the gift he bought. It was a necklace. A 'Snowie' necklace. I've always wanted to buy myself a 'Snowie' necklace since I saw it in SATC where Carrie is always wearing and now I'm wearing a necklace with my name on it. How wonderful is that?

Us at QE2 last November.

We just came back from Honolulu near Dato' Kramat there. My baby's fucking drunk but I'm still wide awake. I think that's because I didn't drink much. Quite a surprise. Cos' usually on any outings like this, I'd always be the one who is drunk, haha. But this time it's because I have been sick for 2 days I think, diarrhea and fever. So I couldn't drink much also. I didn't go to work for two days already. Sigh. But anyway, my work is leading me no where also, so even if I miss work also it doesn't really matter.

Wanna know what I do at work?

Bills. Bills. Bills.

What does doing bills have anything to do with law I really really wonder?
Maybe they just need someone to do things that no one is willing to do.

OK, I don't wanna talk about my work on a special day like this. Spoil the mood nia.
Anyway, I will be going to Langkawi this 26th. =)
Yippie~

Us at Park Royal.

Anyone wants any pressie for Christmas?
Bluekk.

Sigh sigh sigh.. It's really a pity that I cannot drink on Christmas. How can a celebration be without beers and beers? Hope that I will get well soon and get back to my old life. =p
By the way, I will be going down to KL this Monday after Langkawi.
Purp has something urgent and I'm going with him of course. Hopefully I can shop a bit this time. Hehe. Lastime when I went there also didnt' shop much hor, and CNY is just around the corner, time to spoil myself a little and buy some nice dress. =)

It's 4 am now. I think I better go get some rest because Santa Claus will not come if I'm still awake. I love Christmas.
Have a merry Christmas people. Muaaahh~

My new tattoo. Sorry it looks abit ugly here, this was taken once it was done.
But still, it looks beautiful to me.

Gloomy?

2008-12-12T14:40:00.006Z

I'm moving out this Sunday. =)
For those who don't know, I have been staying together with Purp since I was back in Malaysia for almost 5 months now.

So, eventually, I found a house (near Sungai Pinang) which is supposed to be quite nice. I know my house mate and he knows him too.
I'm supposed to be packing my things now cos' my things are all scattered around his room. Haha. Funny how I managed to buy so many things in just 5 months.

Anyway, I think this is good. Things will be good.
We have been fighting a lot lately. And the only thing I think I should do so that we won't fight that frequent is me moving out. I sincerely think that this will help.
As we both are the very stubborn type. And neither of us will ever learn how to compromise. So, the best thing we can do now is perhaps to stop seeing each other so often and to learn to cherish what we are having now.

Well, it won't be easy I think.
But I'm gonna do this because I know I need to do this on my own.
And I know there is someone who is still feeling sad for the gloomy news. Haha.

Bluekk.

I will write about my new room and my new life soon. Stay tuned and happy christmas people!

The last time I truly smiled.
Thank you.

2008-12-07T02:03:00.003Z

Dear TYS,

07.12.2008 (Sunday)

-How are you there my friend?
I heard that it's been snowing alot there. How good! The weather here is depressing. It's always hot and humid. I hate humidity.

But life's good. Been busy with work lately, as usual. Though I spend most of my time wondering what life is. I guess when you are living it, it is just what it is.
Remember I always told you I wanna live my life to the fullest?
No regrets?

Well, honestly, a lot have changed since I came back to Malaysia. My perspective, my principles, my points of view, my way of thinking and doing things.. I think I'm just gradually changing into someone who is more responsible and less stubborn. Isn't this good?
You always complaint about how stubborn and irresponsible I am.

Haha. Anyway, I really thank you for suggesting and forcing me to do this.
Maybe we also agree that this is the only way that can connect you and me together?

Again, today is another day I wanna remember.

I'm going to get my second tattoo done today. =)
Don't you judge me! You know I'm just doing what I wanna do. So, just be with me and listen to me k? =)
Purple is getting the same too. Well.. We actually decided this even before I left for UK. I guess we are just doing what we promised we would do.

And... It is this that I wanna get.

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I think that's all for today. Write again soon?

Yours truly,
Snowie